The moral of the story is to trust and keeping trusting one’s own intuition and inner guidance regardless. If we choose to stay the course and persevere, dive deep, its often within the deepest darkest times of our lives that we’ll find the Light that will show us the way forward, even if that way forward leads us back into another apparent pile of shit ..LOL. Keep trusting regardless.
In my journaling out of my recent experience in Egypt, it helped me review and revisit the same from a different angle and too obtaining further clarity as to the bigger pictures and the “whys”.
Why do I publish this ? For, one I am intuitively guided to. Writing helps me express out my creative energy, that very energy that makes me who I am. Me sharing my journey, I have no doubt will help those who need to hear / read this, perhaps connecting dots within their own journey, or perhaps generating a spark within for an eventuality and so on. I guess too there’ll be some who’ll regard aspects of this skeptically as hogwash, and that’s fine too.
Aspects of what’s written here is raw, from the heart and I do expose aspects of my inner life. As some tend to so, please don’t feel sorry or pity for me, I’m good and I don’t need it, but thanks anyway. I’m ok !
For those who know me well enough, and for those in the know, you will understand when I say, whatever happens needed to happen that way it did. In turn, our part in all this, are the consequent choices we make and in how we choose to navigate via our actions through what transpires.
As we all go through our own journey of growth in expanded consciousness and spirituality, insights, things and synchronicities can occur in a way we can’t always logically explain. My learnings over the years through personal experience was to Listen, Trust, and Allow, as I know with all my heart that there’s a higher vibrational intelligence out there that holds all we need to know, even though it does not often bloody make sense or “speak” in simple, plain terms.
The Voice In The Head
My trip to Egypt in Dec 2023, was spurred simply by an apparent whimsical mental nudge, if you will, to make a trip to Egypt. A “Voice” in my head that said “COME AND SEE”. And so, as I do these days, I don’t question much and I heeded and trusted that nudge. Hence it was primarily on that basis, I booked a one-way ticket to Egypt, end destination being Luxor. The aim was to spend about 4 to 6 weeks there (early December till early January 2024 thereabouts), hence the one-way ticket, as the return date was hanging in the air.
It proved to be a tussle of trusting the inner guidance and simultaneously fighting my innate logical mind and consequent doubts as to “what the hell am I doing”. The deeper Why, The What and The How were not clear to me, but still I felt a deep sense of conviction that I had to be there.
I had little idea as to what my itinerary, agenda or activity would be or what I would actually do there. Part of me kept saying, “I have no idea why I am going and what I am going to do there” . But the overall sense I got was that there was going to be some manner of spiritual connection, some healing, and too exploring the potential of doing future business in Luxor, running tours / retreats and even perhaps too the possibility of living in Egypt.
So I made the trip, intended as a solo discovery journey to see what would present. I did have contacts there, my friend Christina, an energy worker living in Luxor and a couple of acquaintances.
The Dark Night .. The Scene Prior
A more detailed blog on this is in the planning, but here’s the gist of it.
Unknown to most (I’d say 99.99% of people who know me), 2023 brought to head a number of significant and pivotal changes for me which have been brewing for quite a while … BUT it also took me into to a major upheaval, what some will call a “Dark Night Of The Soul” phase. Man !! it was deep, dark, depressive, Uggghhhh 😱!. I have never experienced anything like this ever and would never want to again, even though I had my share of similar as I embraced my spiritual and awakening journey. No thank you sir!
But I know the reason why this happened, as it will for all of us.
I pride myself in always being able to navigate through the challenges of life better than most, i.e. the “shit”, the dregs life throws at us. This is attributed through my growth in learning the hard way and too, in my role as Therapist, Mindset and Spiritual Coach helping others in that very same aspect.
Here’s the thing, with this “Dark Night” thingy, I struggled to walk my talk and I was not very proud of how I handled myself. But there were huge learnings that came with it.
Nothing I tried seem to work or appease the doldrums and I kept slipping in deeper. Well in saying that, the only thing that bounced me out and into a high vibrational state was working with clients and in the Energy work I do. That brings me much joy and fulfilment.
I dare say with confidence that if it was not due to the application of the insight and knowledge I already held within given the profession I’m in, I may not be here anymore and you would not be reading this.
It was in this vein of space that the “Voice” came in. My soul needed me to find something for me, and Egypt called.
The Trip Summary
I had been to Luxor before in 2016 for 2 weeks and had an intense and interesting experience in particular the interaction with the energies there, in the temples and tombs. Further, inadvertently and unknowingly I connected energetically to a particular line / heritage of Pharaohs (story below).
This time I decided to stop first at Cairo to see the pyramids which I did not in 2016. Hence two nights in Cairo and then onwards to Luxor.
But here’s the thing, I had planned for a month, but after only 7 days in Egypt (5 days in Luxor), I decided to call it in and return to Perth. Well. this certainly seemed like an anti-climax after everything said above.
As you read on, you’ll find that the intuition, the “Voice” was spot on in its directive. “Come and See” it said. I went, I saw, but instead I threw a hissy fit and I received a few hard lessons in learning to trust even more in what was.
Well …. Here’s the story behind it and what unfolded. The bottom section has a more detailed chronology of my experiences, revelations and visions.
The Trip Story
Looking back, I am glad I listened to that voice, jumped off that cliff, blindfolded, not knowing what is to be and simply placed my trust in the guidance. Although things did not play out as per schedule, the Egypt trip gave me what I needed, to find myself again.
I took an instant dislike to Cairo, its energy, its chaotic nature. At face value my experience with the Giza Pyramids was nothing to shout about. The never-ending hassles, scams by the Egyptians (for the money in my wallet) at the Pyramids complex too placed a damper on the experience. There’s more I’ll have to say about this in another blog to come.
In contrast, immediately upon landing in Luxor two days later, that which I felt about Cairo washed away, and I experienced a calm, more at peace, I felt like I had come “home”. But from here things were about to go downhill.
My initial experience in Luxor this time was nothing like that of 2016. I became disappointed, I left little or no energy connection to anything. The day after landing at Luxor, I started feeling like I had made a mistake coming here, I spent the day chilling and went shopping for groceries for my intended one month stay (duhh!!). The next day I visited Luxor Temple, again in contrast, I felt NOTHING, energetically connected to NOTHING. The energy in Luxor felt dead to me, quite blaahh!
By Day Two in Luxor, I started feeling really miserable, I started questioning myself, the guidance I was receiving. I no longer wanted to be here, I wanted to go home. What the hell was I thinking in deciding on this trip?
Within the frame of my “hissy fit”, I told my friend Christina this;
“I seem to have also lost faith in the guidance I’m getting. I’m taking anything that comes in with huge pinch of salt. Its gonna have huge ramifications for me and any work I do with clients. And too if I wanna continue doing what I’m doing, the month that follows will reveal itself”
Christina in turn mentioned that on the contrary, the energies of Egypt were even stronger than ever and drawing more souls back to Egypt, hence that could explain the original “Voice” in my head. She evidenced this to what the “expats” and her clients were experiencing energetically as a result.
She did suggest that what I was experiencing was likely a “reflection of the shadows still within me”. And she was probably right. Egypt, unknown to me, was already doing a number on me (a clearing) but I was resisting, especially after going through what I did in earlier months, I did not want to feel the same shit again, I was expecting something magical to happen, and fast too.
At this point, despite earlier aspirations, I decided that Egypt is not the place I’d want to live in. I like my creature comforts which Egypt does not cater for.
Christina suggested that perhaps I was running away from my “karma”. Now me personally, I use that word quite carefully because of the many and varied interpretive connotations of it and too based on my own belief systems.
But I’d agree with her re the gist of it. Using my own analogy, Egypt was throwing me into a cauldron of fire to set the stage for me to be re-forged. But I had to be first stripped off the old energies as a prerequisite. While I had already done a lot of work on myself the months prior, the last bits still had to be weeded off. Sometimes the last bits can be the toughest.
Serapis Bey talks about similar re the initiation rights of those walking into the inner sanctum of his temple. To enter the light they would have to first shed, strip the identity of who they were.
Bottom line, I was in the wrong vibrational state to connect with the layer of Egypt’s energies that awaited me. I had to let go of the negativity that I was holding onto.
I decided to fight this inner resistance. I went within, spent time meditating, working on myself allowing myself to take in whatever Eqypt was gonna “hurl” at me.
The next day (Day Three), I visited the Karnak Temple Complex. Things started to shift for me from this stage onwards. Walking into this space I begin to feel more at peace and ease, I can’t explain why / how though.
Karnak is huge and as I walked thru, I started recording Light Language Codes and various spots there (see my You Tube Channel). Christina suggested that I visit the statue of Sekhmet in the temple of Ptah, situated away from the main complex, and towards the edge. (see “chronology section” below as to what transpired).
That was on a Saturday and after Karnak, I started to feel even more peace within myself. The next day Sunday I went to the Luxor Museum where I dropped into a more contemplative frame of clarity as to the “whys” of this trip.
I felt a shift and decided, yes it was time to return. But this time the decision to return came from place of quiet peace versus a need to run away.
However, in saying that, my inner sense told me that this is just merely CHAPTER ONE of the Egypt saga and that I needed to stay on for the next chapters to come. But I could see into what the next chapters were gonna be like and man !! .. it was going to make chapter one look like candy, like child’s play.
I had a choice to make, stay on and traverse through the next gauntlet or grab my wins and return. There was no right or wrong. It was a matter of what I was ready to face.
Me : No dude, I am not ready for this, not now.
So did I chicken out and run? Maybe? But I was happy with what I had received already through recent days which was a greater sense of peace and too purpose that I have been yearning for these last few months. Its like I rediscovered my mojo, now its up to me what do with it when I returned to Perth.
Would it have been a whole new experience had I stayed on ? I believe we receive what we need to and free will can alter timing and impact.
So Sunday afternoon, I booked my return flights and flew out on Monday and I left Egypt with a greater sense of peace and calm than when I came to her. But there’s a sense I’ll be back for what she has in store for me, when I’m ready, plus too not ruling out the possibility of running tours and retreats in Egypt.
One more thing, another reason that was pulling me back home to Perth was my two year old granddaughter. I found that I was missing her terribly and that I wanted to be around her for Christmas. There’s a deeper story here as to my relationship with myself, love and connection (rather the lack of). Me missing her and even admitting this is a progression in me coming to harmony with my deep subconscious aversions and programming. I do touch on this in an earlier blog, if you are game for a further read. Click here!
Back in Perth now, it would seem that I have definitely turned the corner for the better. I feel more stable, more purposeful towards the future, more clarity, my intuition is on fire. It will be interesting to gauge how the energy flows through when I start working with clients again after the Christmas festivities break.
I have not written a blog since April 2022, and now I feel inspired to write again, starting with this one. For me, the more I express my creativity, the more I sit within a high vibrational frequency, and conversely the other way around. There are few more blogs about Egypt to be written, more into the “Dark Night” episode and too there’s a book which is to emerge, which I have been procrastinating on.
Looking back, I am glad I listened to that voice, jumped off that cliff, blindfolded, not knowing what is to be and simply placed my trust in the guidance. Although things did not play out as per schedule, the Egypt trip gave me what I needed, to find myself again.
It could have gone either way, in different directions, but as I have learnt in my journey from being a hard-core Accountant (stuck within my head) to now embracing my spiritual path, its about letting go and trusting the path, the intuition. That has been my way of life now for a long while. No matter what we think we know, there is always another layer of clarity, wisdom awaiting us, and there forth another, and another.
This often presents within the level and degree of expectations we hold, our wants, our need to know, our need to hold on. When this starts to impede onto our sense of internal peace, happiness, I’d say our vibrational frequency, then consider, letting yourselves instead to flow into harmony within the space of not knowing, with the unknown and into the perceived “darkness”.
Diamonds are said to be often found in the deepest darkest places. What will you find when you allow yourself to venture into the unknown?
If you’ve read this far, I thank you for indulging with me. This below is a chronological record of related events, insights and revelations that took place.
The Chronology
Videos of the Light Codes / Light Language Transmissions from the Egypt trip can be found on my You Tube Channel here.
More will be uploaded in time to come, do keep checking in.
Malaysia
I spent three nights in Malaysia (my birthplace) first, enroute Egypt. It turned out that I needed to be there given the people I met up with and for conversations had with them, for their benefit.
Giza Pyramids
Day Two, the day after landing in Cairo. Though not feeling energy much initially, as I walked down the hill slope looking at these two pyramids, I felt guided to record an Energy Transmission. The feedback I got from those who listened to it was that is was quite intense. The clip is in my You Tube Channel.
My right shoulder has been giving me problems over the last two years and intensified over the last 10 months, it incapacitated me in many ways and certainly did not help my mental and emotional state. As evidenced by the therapy work I had done on myself, it was definitely related more to a subconscious / energetical root cause than it was a physical issue. It took a long time, but while I had some great progress (in the mast four months) in this respect, prior the Egypt trip it came back with vengeance.
Back to Day Two at the Pyramids, defying all conventional logic, when I work up the next day after visiting the pyramids, the shoulder was heaps better, and the day after that too.
Adding on, the morning of Day Four, my first morning in Luxor, the shoulder became even better and continued to progressively get better each day. As I write this now back in Perth, the shoulder has not been this good in a long time. There is less pain, less nerve impingement, less numbness in digits, less pins and needles, better range of movement, even in the neck, the neck muscles are more relaxed, not crying out as much and I have so much more flexibility in the shoulder joint and right arm than I have had since before Jan 2023. Magic huh ?
Consider that I had not done anything different in terms of a contributing variant that would warrant the change. So what was it ? I can’t tell you for sure, but based on the above I’d say the energies of Egypt healed me. Perhaps one of the reasons I had to make the trip.
Typically though, my belief has always been that physical issues are a manifestation of unresolved matters within our spiritual, mental and emotional bodies. I’ve come across this many times in working with clients and too see them experience spontaneous healing when subconscious or energetical blocks are addressed. It is awesome for me to experience this myself.
Claustrophobia ; Though not directly related to this trip, I thought it may be worth mentioning. I have always had Claustrophobia. As I “awakened” in my journey of growth, I kept getting a sense that I was buried alive at some point and that it has something to do with Egypt.
I decided to enter the tomb of Queen Hetepheres contained in a rather small pyramid next to the Grand Pyramid Khufu. To get to it one had to navigate down through a long square tunnel-way only about 3 to 4ft in height and which went down about 90ft deep. As I attempted this the claustrophobic fear intensified and I froze, the fear of being trapped inside seized me. I managed to pull myself together and went in all the way.
Day Three, prior to leaving Cairo, from my hostel looking at the pyramids looking at the second largest pyramid Khafre, I started was tapping into the energy of it and its surroundings and I did another Light Language Energy Transmission.
During this the sense I received was that I was a slave at that era and it wasn’t a very wonderful time for me. I was not happy there / then were emotions that came up too as a result.
Luxor Museum
When I went to Luxor Museum, standing in front of the statue of Akhenaton (also known as Amenhotep IV) I suddenly felt a lot of love for this man, a remembrance came in that I was his priest during his reign and that we were lovers apparently and sadness came over me (missing him ?).
Oddly enough in 2016, visiting the same museum, I got energetically activated after seeing Akhenaton’s statue. And that event revealed an energetical connection I apparently had with his lineage. Long story short, in 2016 ;
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- Connection 1 : I visited the tomb of Tutankhamun and where his mummy was on display, I felt quite emotional and felt compelled to work on his feet and heart chakras. Note visiting his tomb was not the original intention, it was made last minute as I had a nudge to do so.
- Connection 2 : While meditating, I had a vision of what seemed like a cow with long thin horns, Weird I thought then, could it be a deer, never seen cows with horns like that.
- Connection 3 : Guess what, when I visited Luxor Museum, I saw a statue of this very animal on display. This very statue was found guarding the entrance of Tutankhamun’s tomb when they first discovered his tomb in 1922.
- Connection 4 : Akhenaton, I discover that he’s the father of Tutankhamun.
- Connection 5 : Akhenaton’s father, Amenhotep III, is said to be a reincarnation of Serapis Bey, with whom I have an energetical connection with and who’s etheric temple lies at Luxor Temple
Hence unknowingly back in 2016, I had an energetically connected to that lineage and its no surprise that I connected again this time with Akhenaton in 2023.
Karnak Temple Complex
In the wake of feeling completely miserable the day prior, I forced myself out to Karnak Temple when I reached there, I felt a sense of peace and a sense of calmness come over me as I walked through the temple complex.
It was suggested to me to visit Sekhmet (wife of Ptah) at the temple of Ptah, which lay at the edged boundary of the complex. As I stood with Sekhmet’s statue, some Light Language came through and it felt like she was taking away my pain and troubles.
Also, I recorded more Light Language transmissions in the temple complex in contrast to other days, I guess I was now in a higher vibrational state.
All in all, it was a good day, it would seem I had turned a corner. I take it as the energy of Karnak temple doing something for me.
The River Nile
My last day in Luxor, I was leaving at noon. That morning, I hired a boat for a brief cruise on the Nile (LOL, again a little voice told me to do it). Oddly that morning, despite all my earlier mention, I instead felt sad and emotional about leaving.
On the water though, I first started experiencing a sense of calm and peace. Though it was a calming and soothing feeling I still felt very emotional. Then this odd narrative started playing out in my head. It was like I was taking to the land, to Egypt, saying “I’m sorry, I’m sorry to you for what I’ve done before” I was apologizing and asking for forgiveness, this kept going on and on.
Well, its not that I consciously remember what this was all about, but there was a strong sense within me that I had I’d wronged Egypt, done something bad, wronged the land in another time and I needed to make amends, to ask for forgiveness. It definitely felt very emotional for me and I felt I could eventually break down at some point.
But by the time the cruise ended, I felt even more at peace and that I somehow had the feeling of being at ease / relief that I had tied up some loose ends.
Now get this weird coincidence (I say that but LOL .. its not), when I told my friend Christina about this, she told me that the day or two prior, her friend (let’s call her “T”), whom I met earlier, had related my unease with Egypt to her own (T’s) healer friend (let’s call her “M”). M tuned in and told T that during my lives in Egypt, I had poisoned the land and that I had “karma” to pay back.
Well, the word “karma” aside, if I connect the dots, it kind of makes sense what M said re my feelings of having “wronged” the land and the fact that I felt bad and felt compelled to apologize to Egypt.
Note, after all of this, I still had no conscious awareness of the “alleged wrong” or “poisoning”, but I left Egypt feeling some degree of closure.
But my sense now of the “poisoning” was that I had done something energetically back then which was inappropriate. In hindsight, this may be connected to a sense I had that one of my reasons for going to Egypt was to cleanse / reactivate the land. Was that sense really about undoing the wrongs I had caused ??
Just a short while after I wrote the above out, it was conveyed to me that was likely the case and that M subsequently mentioned that all I had to do was give love to Egypt and apparently that’s what I did.
The Final Experience
All packed ready to leave Luxor, there was still time, so I headed to Christina’s place for a coffee. The “Voice” told me to ask her for a “blessing” (LOL .. whatever that meant), and I started getting quite emotional as I asked her for it. Christina, being the beautiful soul that she was, naturally obliged. She transmitted through some “light codes” that likely added on to what Egypt was already doing for me.
During this, another vision appeared. It was a vision of me as a high ranking official in an Egyptian army, a general I think and gosh, I enjoyed the killing, not because it was part of war, but I actually loved the slashing and the maiming, a sadistic joy in killing and slaughtering people.
Further, I had spurred and encouraged my men on the same as it fed my frenzy.
Perhaps the remembering of this was in line with the coming to face of the other lives I led in Egypt ?
If you are keen to know more about me, what I do and / or how perhaps how I may be help you on your own journeys. I work with people cognitively and energetically at quantum / multidimensional level. Find me here at my website.
Christina Ritchie has been a good friend of mine for quite a few years. She’s based in Luxor, Egypt and specializes in taking people through their ascension journey and too on twin flame energies. Look her up if you feel so guided to. I only recommend people whom I personally I feel comfortable with and whom I see as the real deal.
Find her here : https://www.howtoreturntolove.com/
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