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Birthday Blog – Letting Go The Sad Child

A story of allowing oneself the awareness to feel into limiting inner patterns … all towards letting that become the platform in enabling us to take that one extra step forward into new growth.

Its my Birthday today ! 🤗  … And today, I inadvertently gave myself one of the better presents I’ve given myself through me just listening to that inner voice. 🙌

 I’m not one for big celebrations but instead tend to become more the introvert, shying away and going within on my birthday. Over recent years I have also learnt to become more “comfortable” in being more “selfish” in how I choose to honour this day versus me feeling the need to oblige towards how the family would like to celebrate with / for me.

Something Happens Unintended 

The words that came to mind was “Sad Child” …. and from nowhere, I stated to feel emotional and tears started welling up on my eyes

This year, I decided to spend the 1st half of the day in quiet time, in quiet reflection at the beach. This entailed a long beach walk, reading a good book (Birthing a New Reality by ChristinA Ritchie – highly recommended) 👍 plus some meditative time with inner reflection … and naturally complete with my smoothies and coffee. 😅

Now, I have been sporting a right shoulder pain for a few months. Its related to the shoulder complex and instability within the scapula. But I have sensed for a while, the main contributing factor was more energetical but had little success with resolve.

As I gave myself the time to “just be” today and allowed myself to go within, sitting on the beach, questions were put to my inner self as to what the deal was with the shoulder. Then the answers started flowing in intuitively ;

    • Was this primarily a physical related issue ? … No
    • Was it more of a Mental or Spiritual nature ? … No
    • Was it an Emotionally related matter … Yes
    • Could you show me what this is about ? … Bang, it happened !!!

The words that came to mind was “Sad Child” …. and from nowhere, I suddenly started to feel emotional and tears started welling up on my eyes … Interesting, my conscious mind ponders 🤔.

I’m always applying therapeutical work on myself and over time have gone in deep and addressed a lot of issues going back to childhood, in the womb and even too at my own conception (a story for another day that ). But there are always layers upon layers, and these take time.

The message that came thru was, yes we have done the work, but we were still somehow holding on to the “sad child” within and that it was now time to let him go, he has played and fulfilled his role. It was time to set him free.

As I sat on the beach with the ocean in front of me, what presented in my mind’s eye were two versions of me aged approximately between five and seven years of age … there was the Sad Child and the Happy Child. They played together for a short spell and eventually Happy said goodbye to Sad and escorted him to the edge where the waves greeted the beach. It was time for Sad Child to go and I had to make a conscious choice as a start to let him go and to say goodbye.

Letting Go 

Gosh, this was hard for me. Out of nowhere an unexpected flood of emotions poured out into me and here am sitting on the beach tears streaming down my face … geez, its my birthday … come on !! 😅

To my surprise, it was really hard for me to let go of Sad Child, it would appear that I’ve identified with this younger persona of me so much that he had become engrained into the core of me. It was like loosing a part of me, an old friend .. in reality it was indeed so … BUT … that part was holding me back with regards my next level of growth. At a deep subconscious level, that association of me, how I identified myself with and as the “Sad Child” had to be fizzled out, disbursed from within my neurological pathways and energy bodies.

The memories would stay, but these would now have to be integrated into and within Happy Child. Oddly though, I have always struggled to relate to Happy Child, probably no thanks to my own childhood perceptions of myself and my childhood conditioning. Even now I struggle with embracing, feeling fun and joy into my life, but I am learning. 🤗

Trusting Guidance 

What I term the “Divine” guided me today, to do what I did to make the choices leading to alone time, to be reflective inwards, What today did for me was to lead me deeper in a sense of awareness of what I was holding on that no longer serves me, what to let go and what to now connect to in turn. I have grown to adhere to these little nudges, whims, voices and they almost never fail to deliver in some way or form .. naturally one has to trust first. 😀

My task henceforth was to learn to embody, resonate more with Happy Child. Now, it would seem that Sad Child did not necessarily go away completely … an aspect of it lingered / faded at the water’s edge in my mind’s eye, but that was still good enough, it was progress, I am guessing there will be more to this story as time unfolds.

Now, here’s the interesting observations … as I let go of Sad Child, thanked him and gave him permission to go, my body (sitting in a crossed leg position) started to spontaneously straighten up and it felt like my spine started to lengthen, I felt taller sitting down .. LOL ! 😅

The next message that came into me was, “Sad Child has no place in me anymore” and that I had to “embody Happy Child”. In my mind’s eye, Happy Child came into my body both from the front into my heart space and too from the back, merging into me … Wow !, that reinforced the physical reactions I had above even more.

Moving On – Healing

All in all it was a good birthday for me

Sad Child now started to fade into the water, and I started burping and yawning. This for me is an expression of an energetical clearing taking place. It happens within me when I work with clients as I clear energy within them and too for me when I do energetical work on myself. This was a good sign that something had shifted within / and or is in the process of so.

When I tapped again into the concept of Sad Child, I could no longer feel or connect to those emotions I had felt earlier, it seemed like a void, that space was empty. Now I will have to teach myself to connect with, nurture and allow Happy Child to grow and thrive within me. I’m not quite sure how I will, but I trust that guidance will present situations that will facilitate this process, naturally too, I will have to make certain conscious choices within me for this to bloom.

Physical healings – now, as I started my day in the morning and with my walk, my right shoulder, through to my neck had this kind of nagging, fatigue like feeling / pain. It was annoying, distracting and uncomfortable. However, as I began my walk back to my car and as I drove back home, I noticed that this was greatly reduced. But it’s still there, not gone completely. My guess is whatever that was released emotionally / energetically had something to do with me sporting the pain.

Will it go off completely ?, When will it happen ? …. Well I guess that’s still undetermined at this point. I hold a firm belief that the body is a barometer of our energetical bodies, spiritually, mentally and emotionally and too, that of our soul. When issues at these levels present and remain unresolved over time, they manifest themselves within the physical body. Its like our body signalling to us “Hey dude, something’s up”. Hence it helps to pay attention, to heed and go within to ask / seek, sometimes we may not get answers or nothing changes, but consider, ignoring the body in turn could result in worsening conditions.

All in all it was a good birthday for me …. Now anyone can do what I did today, in fact I’d highly encourage everyone to try this in some form or other, i.e. going within. Each can and eventually will develop their own style and as to what works for them, but more importantly, not to dictate the process, but allow you inner guidance to show you the way.

If you’ve come so far up to this point, I thank you for taking the time to read, I write this out not only as an expression of my own experience but too, in the event this helps someone on their journey as well. One of my “Why”, my reasons for being in this earth is to help make a difference in the lives of others and this gives me a sense of purpose plus a connection to something bigger than me.

If you have questions with regards your own journey and feel I could help, do drop me a line at info@inneralignment.com.au and we’ll take it from there. Thanks once again. 🙌

Good Friday – The Concept Of Unconditional Love

Good Friday ! The crucifixion cross represents itself as a symbol of Christianity and likely rightfully so, but what does that mean really .. what’s the deeper message ?

Now there’s the Christian view, through the various denominations of the faith … and here’s my take 🙂.

A Bit Of A Background First

I was born and bred into the Roman Catholic faith, and was up there with the rest at one time with how Christians practice their faith, though currently I no longer subscribe to or follow the doctrines, symbolisms of the church and religion. I no longer attend church. But in saying that my faith and belief in this “supreme power” has never been stronger. And I hold the being Jesus in high regard and the lessons I took as explained below.

One can say I am spiritual not religious. I am what one would term an Energy Channel and Conduit. Strange and wonderful things can happen when I lay my hands on someone, or when I simply intend so. I did not choose this, it was gifted to me and I’m humbled to have become a vessel for this “supreme power”, this “cosmic energy”, to work with whoever comes to me.

Do read on …..

So … About The Cross

If we took only one thing out of his teachings, it would be this … the concept of “Unconditional Love” !

To me, the underlying message within the cross is “Unconditional Love”, and emphasizing on the word UNCONDITIONAL ! Unfortunately most people struggle with this concept, let alone being able to practice or live it, the best of Christians included.

Unconditional Love ! I believe this is what the “being” we know as Jesus (or Yeshua as he presents himself to me) wanted mankind to grasp. If we took only one thing out of his teachings, I feel it would be this … the concept of “Unconditional Love” !

Look, he know what he was in for, he knew exactly !! And he had the power and ability to prevent the torture, the crucifixion. Why …. he could had stopped all of this at anytime, all he had to do was to lay his hand on the Pharisees and they would see the “light”. But why did he not?

When Peter defended Jesus by cutting off the ear of a Roman solider, Jesus reattached the ear and told Peter, “Shall I not drink from the cup my Father has given me”.

He could have chosen not to subject himself to this really horrible death. He instead saw and practiced a larger picture .. Unconditional Love !

What Is Love

Love, in my humble view, holds the highest frequency vibration in the cosmos. But the concept of love is often used and practiced very loosely by mankind. Through our conditioning and belief systems, love has very often become conditional, subject to something.

“I love you … but”

“I will do this for you … if”

“I will love ..when”

Within the word UNCONDITIONAL, there is no place for “But”, If”, “And” or the likes.

True love flows from the heart, from this quiet, still, calm, peaceful place within void of unhelpful emotions and thoughts. It extends and radiates out in the absence of expectations, reward, self-ego, need for validation, acknowledgement, conditions, etc. … yep, you get it 🙂. True love is Unconditional and it flows out for the greater good for mankind.

On that note, there is also the aspect of Unconditional Love for one’s own-self ….  “Self Love”. But that’s a blog for another day 🙂 (stay tuned).

I’d encourage you to take time out to reflect and practice what unconditional love could mean for you. What happens when we choose (yes, its a choice) to encompasses the concept of unconditional in our interaction with others. Mothers, in particular, are quite good at this. Remember the phrase “A face only a mother could love” ?

Consider that when you practice this, you’ll find that potentially, you ;

    • Have less expectations of others
    • Respect and understand the journey / struggles of others better
    • Start seeing others in a different light, perhaps even the “God-spark” within them
    • Hence too, become less judgmental and perhaps more compassionate
    • Have less of a desire to lash out
    • Now find that you are less stressed about your expectations of life and people
    • Have less of those unhelpful emotions within, or perhaps are able to manage them better

Gosh, I could go on and on, but I hope you see that by allowing yourself to love unconditionally, you are actually helping yourself too. It could be termed a “selfish” act, but its a good thing ehh ? 🙂

Imagine how much better the world we live in could be, if we all took time just to practice a little “unconditional love”. When we choose to treat each other a slightly better degree of care, dignity, understanding and respect .. unconditionally.

Yeshua, The Cross And Unconditional Love

At the Last Supper, Yeshua washes the feet of his disciples and told his disciples “A new command I give you, love one another as I have loved you”.

I bet at that time, they did not have much of a freakin clue 🙂  what he truly meant.

Yeshua, could have saved himself from the cross and death, but his act was “selfless” and “unconditional” and aimed at demonstrating a practice for us to emulate in the manner we treat and regard each other.

“Love One Another As I Have Loved You” … and know you don’t have to be a Christian or even be religious to practice this.

“Stay the course, pick up the pieces, start again”

While on the cross he went on to say “Father forgive them for they know not what they do”. Still, the human aspect of him had its own “hissy fit” as he cried out “Father, why have you forsaken me”.

This is something we can all inadvertently feel within, “forsaken”, as we practice  unconditional love and in the process get disregarded, have shit thrown at our faces, etc. Yep, we have all been there right ?

But what do you do then ? Stay the course, pick up the pieces, start again, get “forsaken” again and start all over again.

It is a big, big ask of anyone to practice unconditional love all the time. Its definitely easier said than done, but there is bigger picture here, ultimately taking yourself into a place of deep peace, feeling light, feeling free, allowing your true self from within to emerge and radiate.

Today, I am a better version of myself, simply because of how I “choose” to practice this in my own life. I falter, man do I falter ! 🙂 But I try and stay the course.

This, my friends is the meaning I take out of Good Friday. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

“Love One Another As I Have Loved You”