Author: Tony Ratnam

Tony is a Clinical Hypnotherapist, NLP Practitioner, Lifestyle Coach, Energy Healing Facilitator and a Personal Fitness Trainer. He sees his purpose as towards helping people align themselves to be the best possible version of themselves and to further reach higher levels of consciousness in the process.

My Eqypt Experience – Yet Another Journey Of Trust

The moral of the story is to trust and keeping trusting one’s own intuition and inner guidance regardless. If we choose to stay the course and persevere, dive deep, its often within the deepest darkest times of our lives that we’ll find the Light that will show us the way forward, even if that way forward leads us back into another apparent pile of shit ..LOL. Keep trusting regardless.

In my journaling out of my recent experience in Egypt, it helped me review and revisit the same from a different angle and too obtaining further clarity as to the bigger pictures and the “whys”.

Why do I publish this ?  For, one I am intuitively guided to. Writing helps me express out my creative energy, that very energy that makes me who I am. Me sharing my journey, I have no doubt will help those who need to hear / read this, perhaps connecting dots within their own journey, or perhaps generating a spark within for an eventuality and so on. I guess too there’ll be some who’ll regard aspects of this skeptically as hogwash, and that’s fine too.

Aspects of what’s written here is raw, from the heart and I do expose aspects of my inner life. As some tend to so, please don’t feel sorry or pity for me, I’m good and I don’t need it, but thanks anyway. I’m ok !

For those who know me well enough, and for those in the know, you will understand when I say, whatever happens needed to happen that way it did. In turn, our part in all this, are the consequent choices we make and in how we choose to navigate via our actions through what transpires.

As we all go through our own journey of growth in expanded consciousness and spirituality, insights, things and synchronicities can occur in a way we can’t always logically explain. My learnings over the years through personal experience was to Listen, Trust, and Allow, as I know with all my heart that there’s a higher vibrational intelligence out there that holds all we need to know, even though it does not often bloody make sense or “speak” in simple, plain terms.

The Voice In The Head

My trip to Egypt in Dec 2023, was spurred simply by an apparent whimsical mental nudge, if you will, to make a trip to Egypt. A “Voice” in my head that said “COME AND SEE”. And so, as I do these days, I don’t question much and I heeded and trusted that nudge. Hence it was primarily on that basis, I booked a one-way ticket to Egypt, end destination being Luxor. The aim was to spend about 4 to 6 weeks there (early December till early January 2024  thereabouts), hence the one-way ticket, as the return date was hanging in the air.

It proved to be a tussle of trusting the inner guidance and simultaneously fighting my innate logical mind and consequent doubts as to “what the hell am I doing”. The deeper Why, The What and The How were not clear to me, but still I felt a deep sense of conviction that I had to be there.

I had little idea as to what my itinerary, agenda or activity would be or what I would actually do there. Part of me kept saying, “I have no idea why I am going and what I am going to do there” . But the overall sense I got was that there was going to be some manner of spiritual connection, some healing, and too exploring the potential of doing future business in Luxor, running tours / retreats and even perhaps too the possibility of living in Egypt.

So I made the trip, intended as a solo discovery journey to see what would present. I did have contacts there, my friend Christina, an energy worker living in Luxor and a couple of acquaintances.

The Dark Night .. The Scene Prior

A more detailed blog on this is in the planning, but here’s the gist of it.

Unknown to most (I’d say 99.99% of people who know me), 2023 brought to head a number of significant and pivotal changes for me which have been brewing for quite a while … BUT it also took me into to a major upheaval, what some will call a “Dark Night Of The Soul” phase.  Man !! it was deep, dark, depressive, Uggghhhh 😱!. I have never experienced anything like this ever and would never want to again, even though I had my share of similar as I embraced my spiritual and awakening journey. No thank you sir!

But I know the reason why this happened, as it will for all of us.

I pride myself in always being able to navigate through the challenges of life better than most, i.e. the “shit”, the dregs life throws at us. This is attributed through my growth in learning the hard way and too, in my role as Therapist, Mindset and Spiritual Coach helping others in that very same aspect.

Here’s the thing, with this “Dark Night” thingy, I struggled to walk my talk and I was not very proud of how I handled myself. But there were huge learnings that came with it.

Nothing I tried seem to work or appease the doldrums and I kept slipping in deeper. Well in saying that, the only thing that bounced me out and into a high vibrational state was working with clients and in the Energy work I do. That brings me much joy and fulfilment.

I dare say with confidence that if it was not due to the application of the insight and knowledge I already held within given the profession I’m in, I may not be here anymore and you would not be reading this.

It was in this vein of space that the “Voice” came in. My soul needed me to find something for me, and Egypt called.

The Trip Summary

I had been to Luxor before in 2016 for 2 weeks and had an intense and interesting experience in particular the interaction with the energies there, in the temples and tombs. Further, inadvertently and unknowingly I connected energetically to a particular line / heritage of Pharaohs (story below).

This time I decided to stop first at Cairo to see the pyramids which I did not in 2016. Hence two nights in Cairo and then onwards to Luxor.

But here’s the thing, I had planned for a month, but after only 7 days in Egypt (5 days in Luxor), I decided to call it in and return to Perth. Well. this certainly seemed like an anti-climax after everything said above.

As you read on, you’ll find that the intuition, the “Voice” was spot on in its directive. “Come and See” it said. I went, I saw, but instead I threw a hissy fit and I received a few hard lessons in learning to trust even more in what was.

Well …. Here’s the story behind it and what unfolded. The bottom section has a more detailed chronology of my experiences, revelations and visions.

The Trip Story

Looking back, I am glad I listened to that voice, jumped off that cliff, blindfolded, not knowing what is to be and simply placed my trust in the guidance. Although things did not play out as per schedule, the Egypt trip gave me what I needed, to find myself again.

I took an instant dislike to Cairo, its energy, its chaotic nature. At face value my experience with the Giza Pyramids was nothing to shout about. The never-ending hassles, scams by the Egyptians (for the money in my wallet) at the Pyramids complex too placed a damper on the experience. There’s more I’ll have to say about this in another blog to come.

In contrast, immediately upon landing in Luxor two days later, that which I felt about Cairo washed away, and I experienced a calm, more at peace, I felt like I had come “home”. But from here things were about to go downhill.

My initial experience in Luxor this time was nothing like that of 2016. I became disappointed, I left little or no energy connection to anything. The day after landing at Luxor, I started feeling like I had made a mistake coming here, I spent the day chilling and went shopping for groceries for my intended one month stay (duhh!!). The next day I visited Luxor Temple, again in contrast, I felt NOTHING, energetically connected to NOTHING. The energy in Luxor felt dead to me, quite blaahh!

By Day Two in Luxor, I started feeling really miserable, I started questioning myself, the guidance I was receiving. I no longer wanted to be here, I wanted to go home. What the hell was I thinking in deciding on this trip?

Within the frame of my “hissy fit”, I told my friend Christina this;

“I seem to have also lost faith in the guidance I’m getting. I’m taking anything that comes in with huge pinch of salt. Its gonna have huge ramifications for me and any work I do with clients. And too if I wanna continue doing what I’m doing, the month that follows will reveal itself”

Christina in turn mentioned that on the contrary, the energies of Egypt were even stronger than ever and drawing more souls back to Egypt, hence that could explain the original “Voice” in my head. She evidenced this to what the “expats” and her clients were experiencing energetically as a result.

She did suggest that what I was experiencing was likely a “reflection of the shadows still within me”. And she was probably right. Egypt, unknown to me, was already doing a number on me (a clearing) but I was resisting, especially after going through what I did in earlier months, I did not want to feel the same shit again, I was expecting something magical to happen, and fast too.

At this point, despite earlier aspirations, I decided that Egypt is not the place I’d want to live in. I like my creature comforts which Egypt does not cater for.

Christina suggested that perhaps I was running away from my “karma”. Now me personally, I use that word quite carefully because of the many and varied interpretive connotations of it and too based on my own belief systems.

But I’d agree with her re the gist of it. Using my own analogy, Egypt was throwing me into a cauldron of fire to set the stage for me to be re-forged. But I had to be first stripped off the old energies as a prerequisite. While I had already done a lot of work on myself the months prior, the last bits still had to be weeded off. Sometimes the last bits can be the toughest.

Serapis Bey talks about similar re the initiation rights of those walking into the inner sanctum of his temple. To enter the light they would have to first shed, strip the identity of who they were.

Bottom line, I was in the wrong vibrational state to connect with the layer of Egypt’s energies that awaited me. I had to let go of the negativity that I was holding onto.

I decided to fight this inner resistance. I went within, spent time meditating, working on myself allowing myself to take in whatever Eqypt was gonna “hurl” at me.

The next day (Day Three), I visited the Karnak Temple Complex. Things started to shift for me from this stage onwards. Walking into this space I begin to feel more at peace and ease, I can’t explain why / how though.

Karnak is huge and as I walked thru, I started recording Light Language Codes and various spots there (see my You Tube Channel). Christina suggested that I visit the statue of Sekhmet in the temple of Ptah, situated away from the main complex, and towards the edge. (see “chronology section” below as to what transpired).

Entrance to Karnak Temple

That was on a Saturday and after Karnak, I started to feel even more peace within myself. The next day Sunday I went to the Luxor Museum where I dropped into a more contemplative frame of clarity as to the “whys” of this trip.

I felt a shift and decided, yes it was time to return. But this time the decision to return came from place of quiet peace versus a need to run away.

However, in saying that, my inner sense told me that this is just merely CHAPTER ONE of the Egypt saga and that I needed to stay on for the next chapters to come. But I could see into what the next chapters were gonna be like and man !! .. it was going to make chapter one look like candy, like child’s play.

I had a choice to make, stay on and traverse through the next gauntlet or grab my wins and return. There was no right or wrong. It was a matter of what I was ready to face.

Me : No dude, I am not ready for this, not now.

So did I chicken out and run? Maybe?  But I was happy with what I had received already through recent days which was a greater sense of peace and too purpose that I have been yearning for these last few months. Its like I rediscovered my mojo, now its up to me what do with it when I returned to Perth.

Would it have been a whole new experience had I stayed on ? I believe we receive what we need to and free will can alter timing and impact. 

So Sunday afternoon, I booked my return flights and flew out on Monday and I left Egypt with a greater sense of peace and calm than when I came to her. But there’s a sense I’ll be back for what she has in store for me, when I’m ready, plus too not ruling out the possibility of running tours and retreats in Egypt.

One more thing, another reason that was pulling me back home to Perth was my two year old granddaughter. I found that I was missing her terribly and that I wanted to be around her for Christmas. There’s a deeper story here as to my relationship with myself, love and connection (rather the lack of). Me missing her and even admitting this is a progression in me coming to harmony with my deep subconscious aversions and programming. I do touch on this in an earlier blog, if you are game for a further read. Click here!

Back in Perth now, it would seem that I have definitely turned the corner for the better. I feel more stable, more purposeful towards the future, more clarity, my intuition is on fire. It will be interesting to gauge how the energy flows through when I start working with clients again after the Christmas festivities break.

I have not written a blog since April 2022, and now I feel inspired to write again, starting with this one. For me, the more I express my creativity, the more I sit within a high vibrational frequency, and conversely the other way around. There are few more blogs about Egypt to be written, more into the “Dark Night” episode and too there’s a book which is to emerge, which I have been procrastinating on.

Looking back, I am glad I listened to that voice, jumped off that cliff, blindfolded, not knowing what is to be and simply placed my trust in the guidance. Although things did not play out as per schedule, the Egypt trip gave me what I needed, to find myself again.

It could have gone either way, in different directions, but as I have learnt in my journey from being a hard-core Accountant (stuck within my head) to now embracing my spiritual path, its about letting go and trusting the path, the intuition. That has been my way of life now for a long while. No matter what we think we know, there is always another layer of clarity, wisdom awaiting us, and there forth another, and another.

This often presents within the level and degree of expectations we hold, our wants, our need to know, our need to hold on. When this starts to impede onto our sense of internal peace, happiness, I’d say our vibrational frequency, then consider, letting yourselves instead to flow into harmony within the space of not knowing, with the unknown and into the perceived “darkness”.

Diamonds are said to be often found in the deepest darkest places. What will you find when you allow yourself to venture into the unknown?

If you’ve read this far, I thank you for indulging with me. This below is a chronological record of related events, insights and revelations that took place.

The Chronology

Videos of the Light Codes / Light Language Transmissions from the Egypt trip can be found on my You Tube Channel here.

More will be uploaded in time to come, do keep checking in. 

Malaysia

I spent three nights in Malaysia (my birthplace) first, enroute Egypt. It turned out that I needed to be there given the people I met up with and for conversations had with them, for their benefit.

Giza Pyramids

Day Two, the day after landing in Cairo. Though not feeling energy much initially, as I walked down the hill slope looking at these two pyramids, I felt guided to record an Energy Transmission. The feedback I got from those who listened to it was that is was quite intense. The clip is in my You Tube Channel.

My right shoulder has been giving me problems over the last two years and intensified over the last 10 months, it incapacitated me in many ways and certainly did not help my mental and emotional state. As evidenced by the therapy work I had done on myself, it was definitely related more to a subconscious / energetical root cause than it was a physical issue. It took a long time, but while I had some great progress (in the mast four months) in this respect, prior the Egypt trip it came back with vengeance.

Back to Day Two at the Pyramids, defying all conventional logic, when I work up the next day after visiting the pyramids, the shoulder was heaps better, and the day after that too.

Adding on, the morning of Day Four, my first morning in Luxor, the shoulder became even better and continued to progressively get better each day. As I write this now back in Perth, the shoulder has not been this good in a long time. There is less pain, less nerve impingement, less numbness in digits, less pins and needles, better range of movement, even in the neck, the neck muscles are more relaxed, not crying out as much and I have so much more flexibility in the shoulder joint and right arm than I have had since before Jan 2023. Magic huh ?

Consider that I had not done anything different in terms of a contributing variant that would warrant the change. So what was it ? I can’t tell you for sure, but based on the above I’d say the energies of Egypt healed me. Perhaps one of the reasons I had to make the trip.

Typically though, my belief has always been that physical issues are a manifestation of unresolved matters within our spiritual, mental and emotional bodies. I’ve come across this many times in working with clients and too see them experience spontaneous healing when subconscious or energetical blocks are addressed. It is awesome for me to experience this myself.

Claustrophobia ; Though not directly related to this trip, I thought it may be worth mentioning. I have always had Claustrophobia. As I “awakened” in my journey of growth, I kept getting a sense that I was buried alive at some point and that it has something to do with Egypt.

I decided to enter the tomb of Queen Hetepheres contained in a rather small pyramid next to the Grand Pyramid Khufu. To get to it one had to navigate down through a long square tunnel-way only about 3 to 4ft  in height and which went down about 90ft deep. As I attempted this the claustrophobic fear intensified and I froze, the fear of being trapped inside seized me. I managed to pull myself together and went in all the way.

Entering the tomb of Queen Hetepheres

Day Three, prior to leaving Cairo, from my hostel looking at the pyramids looking at the second largest pyramid Khafre, I started was tapping into the energy of it and its surroundings and I did another Light Language Energy Transmission.

During this the sense I received was that I was a slave at that era and it wasn’t a very wonderful time for me. I was not happy there / then were emotions that came up too as a result.

Luxor Museum

When I went to Luxor Museum, standing in front of the statue of Akhenaton (also known as Amenhotep IV) I suddenly felt a lot of love for this man, a remembrance came in that I was his priest during his reign and that we were lovers apparently and sadness came over me (missing him ?).

Oddly enough in 2016, visiting the same museum, I got energetically activated after seeing Akhenaton’s statue. And that event revealed an energetical connection I apparently had with his lineage. Long story short, in 2016 ;

    • Connection 1 : I visited the tomb of Tutankhamun and where his mummy was on display, I felt quite emotional and felt compelled to work on his feet and heart chakras. Note visiting his tomb was not the original intention, it was made last minute as I had a nudge to do so.
    • Connection 2 : While meditating, I had a vision of what seemed like a cow with long thin horns, Weird I thought then, could it be a deer, never seen cows with horns like that.
    • Connection 3 : Guess what, when I visited Luxor Museum, I saw a statue of this very animal on display. This very statue was found guarding the entrance of Tutankhamun’s tomb when they first discovered his tomb in 1922.
    • Connection 4 : Akhenaton, I discover that he’s the father of Tutankhamun.
    • Connection 5 : Akhenaton’s father, Amenhotep III, is said to be a reincarnation of Serapis Bey, with whom I have an energetical connection with and who’s etheric temple lies at Luxor Temple

Hence unknowingly back in 2016, I had an energetically connected to that lineage and its no surprise that I connected again this time with Akhenaton in 2023.

Akhenaton
The cow from my vision

Karnak Temple Complex

In the wake of feeling completely miserable the day prior, I forced myself out to Karnak Temple when I reached there, I felt a sense of peace and a sense of calmness come over me as I walked through the temple complex.

It was suggested to me to visit Sekhmet (wife of Ptah) at the temple of Ptah, which lay at the edged boundary of the complex. As I stood with Sekhmet’s statue, some Light Language came through and it felt like she was taking away my pain and troubles.

Sekhmet

Also, I recorded more Light Language transmissions in the temple complex in contrast to other days, I guess I was now in a higher vibrational state.

All in all, it was a good day, it would seem I had turned a corner. I take it as the energy of Karnak temple doing something for me.

The River Nile

My last day in Luxor, I was leaving at noon. That morning, I hired a boat for a brief cruise on the Nile (LOL, again a little voice told me to do it). Oddly that morning, despite all my earlier mention, I instead felt sad and emotional about leaving.

Ragab my boat driver surprising me with tea and falafels

On the water though, I first started experiencing a sense of calm and peace. Though it was a calming and soothing feeling I still felt very emotional. Then this odd narrative started playing out in my head. It was like I was taking to the land, to Egypt, saying “I’m sorry, I’m sorry to you for what I’ve done before” I was apologizing and asking for forgiveness, this kept going on and on.

Well, its not that I consciously remember what this was all about, but there was a strong sense within me that I had I’d wronged Egypt, done something bad, wronged the land in another time and I needed to make amends, to ask for forgiveness. It definitely felt very emotional for me and I felt I could eventually break down at some point.

But by the time the cruise ended, I felt even more at peace and that I somehow had the feeling of being at ease / relief that I had tied up some loose ends.

Now get this weird coincidence (I say that but LOL .. its not), when I told my friend Christina about this, she told me that the day or two prior, her friend (let’s call her “T”), whom I met earlier, had related my unease with Egypt to her own (T’s) healer friend (let’s call her “M”). M tuned in and told T that during my lives in Egypt, I had poisoned the land and that I had “karma” to pay back.

Well, the word “karma” aside, if I connect the dots, it kind of makes sense what M said re my feelings of having “wronged” the land and the fact that I felt bad and felt compelled to apologize to Egypt.

Note, after all of this, I still had no conscious awareness of the “alleged wrong” or “poisoning”, but I left Egypt feeling some degree of closure.

But my sense now of the “poisoning” was that I had done something energetically back then which was inappropriate. In hindsight, this may be connected to a sense I had that one of my reasons for going to Egypt was to cleanse / reactivate the land. Was that sense really about undoing the wrongs   I had caused ??

Just a short while after I wrote the above out, it was conveyed to me that was likely the case and that M subsequently mentioned that all I had to do was give love to Egypt and apparently that’s what I did.

The Final Experience

All packed ready to leave Luxor, there was still time, so I headed to Christina’s place for a coffee. The “Voice” told me to ask her for a “blessing” (LOL .. whatever that meant), and I started getting quite emotional as I asked her for it. Christina, being the beautiful soul that she was, naturally obliged. She transmitted through some “light codes” that likely added on to what Egypt was already doing for me.

During this, another vision appeared. It was a vision of me as a high ranking official in an Egyptian army, a general I think and gosh, I enjoyed the killing, not because it was part of war, but I actually loved the slashing and the maiming, a sadistic joy in killing and slaughtering people.

Further, I had spurred and encouraged my men on the same as it fed my frenzy.

Perhaps the remembering of this was in line with the coming to face of the other lives I led in Egypt ?

If you are keen to know more about me, what I do and / or how perhaps how I may be help you on your own journeys. I work with people cognitively and energetically at quantum / multidimensional level. Find me here at my website.

Me and Christina Ritchie before leaving

Christina Ritchie has been a good friend of mine for quite a few years. She’s based in Luxor, Egypt and specializes in taking people through their ascension journey and too on twin flame energies. Look her up if you feel so guided to. I only recommend people whom I personally I feel comfortable with and whom I see as the real deal.

Find her here : https://www.howtoreturntolove.com/

Birthday Blog – Letting Go The Sad Child

A story of allowing oneself the awareness to feel into limiting inner patterns … all towards letting that become the platform in enabling us to take that one extra step forward into new growth.

Its my Birthday today ! 🤗  … And today, I inadvertently gave myself one of the better presents I’ve given myself through me just listening to that inner voice. 🙌

 I’m not one for big celebrations but instead tend to become more the introvert, shying away and going within on my birthday. Over recent years I have also learnt to become more “comfortable” in being more “selfish” in how I choose to honour this day versus me feeling the need to oblige towards how the family would like to celebrate with / for me.

Something Happens Unintended 

The words that came to mind was “Sad Child” …. and from nowhere, I stated to feel emotional and tears started welling up on my eyes

This year, I decided to spend the 1st half of the day in quiet time, in quiet reflection at the beach. This entailed a long beach walk, reading a good book (Birthing a New Reality by ChristinA Ritchie – highly recommended) 👍 plus some meditative time with inner reflection … and naturally complete with my smoothies and coffee. 😅

Now, I have been sporting a right shoulder pain for a few months. Its related to the shoulder complex and instability within the scapula. But I have sensed for a while, the main contributing factor was more energetical but had little success with resolve.

As I gave myself the time to “just be” today and allowed myself to go within, sitting on the beach, questions were put to my inner self as to what the deal was with the shoulder. Then the answers started flowing in intuitively ;

    • Was this primarily a physical related issue ? … No
    • Was it more of a Mental or Spiritual nature ? … No
    • Was it an Emotionally related matter … Yes
    • Could you show me what this is about ? … Bang, it happened !!!

The words that came to mind was “Sad Child” …. and from nowhere, I suddenly started to feel emotional and tears started welling up on my eyes … Interesting, my conscious mind ponders 🤔.

I’m always applying therapeutical work on myself and over time have gone in deep and addressed a lot of issues going back to childhood, in the womb and even too at my own conception (a story for another day that ). But there are always layers upon layers, and these take time.

The message that came thru was, yes we have done the work, but we were still somehow holding on to the “sad child” within and that it was now time to let him go, he has played and fulfilled his role. It was time to set him free.

As I sat on the beach with the ocean in front of me, what presented in my mind’s eye were two versions of me aged approximately between five and seven years of age … there was the Sad Child and the Happy Child. They played together for a short spell and eventually Happy said goodbye to Sad and escorted him to the edge where the waves greeted the beach. It was time for Sad Child to go and I had to make a conscious choice as a start to let him go and to say goodbye.

Letting Go 

Gosh, this was hard for me. Out of nowhere an unexpected flood of emotions poured out into me and here am sitting on the beach tears streaming down my face … geez, its my birthday … come on !! 😅

To my surprise, it was really hard for me to let go of Sad Child, it would appear that I’ve identified with this younger persona of me so much that he had become engrained into the core of me. It was like loosing a part of me, an old friend .. in reality it was indeed so … BUT … that part was holding me back with regards my next level of growth. At a deep subconscious level, that association of me, how I identified myself with and as the “Sad Child” had to be fizzled out, disbursed from within my neurological pathways and energy bodies.

The memories would stay, but these would now have to be integrated into and within Happy Child. Oddly though, I have always struggled to relate to Happy Child, probably no thanks to my own childhood perceptions of myself and my childhood conditioning. Even now I struggle with embracing, feeling fun and joy into my life, but I am learning. 🤗

Trusting Guidance 

What I term the “Divine” guided me today, to do what I did to make the choices leading to alone time, to be reflective inwards, What today did for me was to lead me deeper in a sense of awareness of what I was holding on that no longer serves me, what to let go and what to now connect to in turn. I have grown to adhere to these little nudges, whims, voices and they almost never fail to deliver in some way or form .. naturally one has to trust first. 😀

My task henceforth was to learn to embody, resonate more with Happy Child. Now, it would seem that Sad Child did not necessarily go away completely … an aspect of it lingered / faded at the water’s edge in my mind’s eye, but that was still good enough, it was progress, I am guessing there will be more to this story as time unfolds.

Now, here’s the interesting observations … as I let go of Sad Child, thanked him and gave him permission to go, my body (sitting in a crossed leg position) started to spontaneously straighten up and it felt like my spine started to lengthen, I felt taller sitting down .. LOL ! 😅

The next message that came into me was, “Sad Child has no place in me anymore” and that I had to “embody Happy Child”. In my mind’s eye, Happy Child came into my body both from the front into my heart space and too from the back, merging into me … Wow !, that reinforced the physical reactions I had above even more.

Moving On – Healing

All in all it was a good birthday for me

Sad Child now started to fade into the water, and I started burping and yawning. This for me is an expression of an energetical clearing taking place. It happens within me when I work with clients as I clear energy within them and too for me when I do energetical work on myself. This was a good sign that something had shifted within / and or is in the process of so.

When I tapped again into the concept of Sad Child, I could no longer feel or connect to those emotions I had felt earlier, it seemed like a void, that space was empty. Now I will have to teach myself to connect with, nurture and allow Happy Child to grow and thrive within me. I’m not quite sure how I will, but I trust that guidance will present situations that will facilitate this process, naturally too, I will have to make certain conscious choices within me for this to bloom.

Physical healings – now, as I started my day in the morning and with my walk, my right shoulder, through to my neck had this kind of nagging, fatigue like feeling / pain. It was annoying, distracting and uncomfortable. However, as I began my walk back to my car and as I drove back home, I noticed that this was greatly reduced. But it’s still there, not gone completely. My guess is whatever that was released emotionally / energetically had something to do with me sporting the pain.

Will it go off completely ?, When will it happen ? …. Well I guess that’s still undetermined at this point. I hold a firm belief that the body is a barometer of our energetical bodies, spiritually, mentally and emotionally and too, that of our soul. When issues at these levels present and remain unresolved over time, they manifest themselves within the physical body. Its like our body signalling to us “Hey dude, something’s up”. Hence it helps to pay attention, to heed and go within to ask / seek, sometimes we may not get answers or nothing changes, but consider, ignoring the body in turn could result in worsening conditions.

All in all it was a good birthday for me …. Now anyone can do what I did today, in fact I’d highly encourage everyone to try this in some form or other, i.e. going within. Each can and eventually will develop their own style and as to what works for them, but more importantly, not to dictate the process, but allow you inner guidance to show you the way.

If you’ve come so far up to this point, I thank you for taking the time to read, I write this out not only as an expression of my own experience but too, in the event this helps someone on their journey as well. One of my “Why”, my reasons for being in this earth is to help make a difference in the lives of others and this gives me a sense of purpose plus a connection to something bigger than me.

If you have questions with regards your own journey and feel I could help, do drop me a line at info@inneralignment.com.au and we’ll take it from there. Thanks once again. 🙌

12 TALES OF THE WIDE GRASSY AREA – Quirky, Funny, Metaphorical

This blog post represents a part reflection of the workings of my inner mind .. somewhat fleety, whimsical, quirky yet creative. Hence, here’s a collection of my spontaneous and somewhat silly, offshoot ramblings sprouting from this vivid mind, which were birthed during the times I would take my doggy out for her early morning walks at a nearby playing field which I fondly named the “Wide Grassy Area”.

As I walked with my dog, I would spot scenes, objects, often things left behind by people the evening prior and my quirky mind would LOL 😀, switch into creative mode, my imagination takes a life of its own …..  and me making up on the spot, metaphors, silly stories about, aliens, wee-folk, etc and bang 😀, off it goes onto Facebook .. Hee Hee 😀.

Sadly my dog Leia, moved on in Feb 2019 to her own dog heaven grassy area, after which I rarely ventured onto the wide grassy area and the stories just stopped. These stories in addition to being part of my creative expression are too a reflection of my special time with Leia. I hope you enjoy these series of stories below as much as I enjoyed creating them.

Feel free to comment below and too with perhaps, what you liked best. Thank you 🙏🙌

In Memory Of And Dedicated To

#1 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – Giant Sized Footwear Found !

Is been rumored that giants roam the Queens Park Reserve at night though no one has yet to capture them on camera.

But wait !! … is this now the closest evidence of the existence of giants?

More importantly why did the giants leave their footwear behind? .. Is this their way of trying to communicate with us?

What’s the message ?.. Also where the hell did they manage to get giant sized Adidas footwear ? Is Adidas secretly supporting the giants?

Is there a hidden conspiracy for world domination??

Stay tuned as this keen reporter keeps his nose to the ground!

#2 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Lone Roller-Shoe

Perth wakes up this morning to the mystery of this lone roller-shoe … left all alone in this wide grassy area.

Questions are afoot as to where its come from … where the other side is .. where are the little feet that belong to this?

Are those feet human … or cld they be alien ? …Or cld this really be an alien ship in disguise?? ..Is Perth in danger of invasion? Gosh!!

Authorities are urging people to report in sightings.

Have you seen any strange footwear lying around?? … Act now before its too late .. Save Perth !!!

#3 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Vehicle!

Overturned vehicle found at the edges of park, with engine still running. No occupants found inside or anywhere close.

Could this be further evidence of the existence of the wee folk reported to be dwelling secretly at the park ?

What’s happened to the occupants? Have they fled or were they taken by aliens? Ahhh we may never know.

But where would they have obtained such a vehicle? Who makes such miniature vehicles? Hmmm !! Are the toy makers in league with the wee folk ?…. and the aliens too perhaps?👽

The mystery continues … till we stumble onto more bizarre sightings, a good Sunday morning to all🌞.

#4 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Wee Folk !

Ok, no stories, or conspiracies today 😀. Just a pic of the wee folks’ meeting area. They must have been up and about yesterday 😀

#5 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Orange Peelings!

Its the Leprechauns … I tell ya … the Leprechauns! … snorted a local, they’ve been having nightly gatherings feasting on oranges, he adds.

Sooo… a new phenomenon emerges at the Queens Park Reserve…. from strange sightings of Aliens to Giants to now, an invasion of Leprechauns…Gosh!!

But why now ? … Have they followed the influx of Irish migration to our shores? ..Or cld the Leprechauns really be the very Irish that have rolled in ? … Leprechauns disguised as common Irish folk?

What does this mean for us? Some residents have already teamed up now to look for that elusive pot of gold whenever rainbows appear…. Hmmm !! Leprechauns and their gold… how well is it hidden ?

Now !! .. why oranges? And why did they leave the peelings behind? …. Do Leprechauns really favor oranges??

The mystery continues!!

#6 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Crater!

The scene, Queens Park Reserve ! Early morning walkers were greeted by this hole in the ground, what some described as a crater.

The conspiracy theories continue. What caused this ? Who is responsible ?

Initial indications were that it likely happened during the wee hours, as some residents interviewed reported hearing a loud thump at night.

Sooo …. is this the mark left behind by a landing alien ship? But why the thump? Could it have been a forced landing or was the Alien pilot simply inexperienced?

Why did they come? Were they looking for human subjects to experiment on or did they simply get lost or perhaps instead encountered technical issues. Well, that may explain the thump in the wee hours.

Ahhh, we may never know and end up still pondering upon our death bed going, what was that crater all about ?

But this seeker of truth shall not rest and will strive to reveal to all what’s truly out there …. till the next time. Nano Nano and Shazbot !🙏

#7 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – Strange Markings !

Residents wake up this morning to yet another mystery of strange symbols and markings discovered at the Queens Park Reserve.

A local walker who wishes not to be named claims these weren’t there the evening before and also claims to have seen strange lights here at night.

So, how did these appear? … Who made them? … Why?

Do these symbols have anything to do with recent strange sightings ? … visitors from another realm perhaps?

Were they trying to communicate with us ? What was it ? … Or were these markings for landing areas of their crafts? … Are we being invaded ?

Why the color Blue ? Why not other colors? ..What is its significance?

Ahhh … we may not know for now ..but the truth shall prevail in time to come.

Stay tuned as we endeavour to unravel these mysteries 😱👽

#8 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – Unidentified Round Object (URO) !

The mystery of strange sightings at the Queens Park Reserve continues … from miniature alien ships to footwear belonging to giants …. and now this?

So what is this URO ? … Could it be some sort of interdimensional travel device ? A portal of sorts?… Experts seem to think this is the only discernable explanation at this point.

Would this explain why no credible sightings of aliens and giants have been recorded so far ?

Could the miniature aliens and giants actually be the same? Could they have the ability to transform in size at will ?

Could this instead be the device that does it ? .. but why has it now been left behind? ..did something go wrong?

…. the mystery continues…..👁👽👾

#9 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Lone Stalk !

We were once a breed of proud tall stalks and blades of grass …. luscious, we covered the entire area …. waving and moving with the wind, catching the glow of the sun, reflecting within the softness of the moonlight. Life was good.

Then one day it came … screaming loudly, roaring, rolling over us ….and it started to decapitate us with its whirling blades. It was horrible…there was carnage everywhere. I saw my friends and family chopped to pieces. We were no more.

But the Lord Of Grass saw fit to have me survive. I remain the lone stalk standing. A single survivor of a once proud race. I am a reminder of the breed that once was.

And … survive and persevere I shall ..waving and moving with the wind, catching the glow of the sun, reflecting within the softness of the moonlight. 

Life will be good. Life will go on.

Till my time comes for me to go to the grassy heavens … I shall stand tall and bear the flag of my race.

#10 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Green Green Grass Of Home !

This seeker of truth has found himself within a place of inner reflection this morning. In the bizarre absence of activities of the Aliens, Giants, the Wee Folk at the Reserve (hmmm ! where have they gone? .. but in the words of Arnie “they’ll be back!) …. well, he has found himself being more present to the surroundings. 

He’s found himself, this morning, drawn to things he’s not paid attention to before, noticing it more now, appreciating it more.

This wide grassy area as he’s discovered now, has given him a sense of being, a sense of comfort, it feels like the green green grass of home.

Ohhh gosh, what’s happening, has he been shifted to a whole new level of consciousness? has he gone further down the arriy-fairy road ? … Ohhhh geez ! Mother of Jesus!!!

Now wait a minute, have the Aliens really gone or is their presence still around ? Could they be beaming some sort of brain juju ray that’s now influenced this seeker of truth away from his mission?

Aha … the penny drops!

And so … this warrior shall not rest and truth will prevail .. but something’s changed, damn !! he’s now got this urge to go smell some flowers 🤔🌹🌻

Till the next time, Nano Nano and Shazbot ! 😎👽

#11 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – The Lone Mushroom !

There it is, alone, singular, standing within fields of grass, by itself.

How many of us find ourselves in a similar situation, where we do not blend in with the norm, we stick out instead. Some are celebrated for this, some in turn are shunned because we don’t fit in, we are seen as different, non compliant.

For the latter, we say to you, for you are unique and for the beauty of who you are is in fact the sum of all the perceived “imperfections” of you. For you are “perfect” within your “imperfections”.

Stand tall we say to you, stand proud! Embrace being the singular mushroom sticking out in a field of grass, embrace your uniqueness 🙏

#12 – Tales Of The Wide Grassy Area – Lessons From The Tree Bark !

Such is life ehh? When our coverings start looking rustic, tattered and begin to peel off. We don’t look nice or feel nice, with pieces of us being scattered around, on the ground, everywhere.

But what comes from the peeling, metaphorically looking at the tree, it reveals an inner lighter skin, an inner beauty. It is smooth, elegant and even it’s now visible bumps and wrinkles from its growth process adds character to itself.

Take the magnificence of the mature gum trees with glowing smooth skin having gone thru its long process of “shedding”. It stands now radiant, its beauty for all to see.

Are you in the process of shedding your bark ? Are you sitting within the uncomfortableness and anguish of being stripped within your life.

Know my children, that your inner beauty, your inner skin is being potentially being prepped to reveal itself. Sit within the experience, seek the lessons, the positive outcomes and harmonize with the process, for your light will shine and you will stand tall and radiate 🙏

Thank you for reading … Nano Nano, Shazbot and blessings to you! 😛😎👽

Good Friday – The Concept Of Unconditional Love

Good Friday ! The crucifixion cross represents itself as a symbol of Christianity and likely rightfully so, but what does that mean really .. what’s the deeper message ?

Now there’s the Christian view, through the various denominations of the faith … and here’s my take 🙂.

A Bit Of A Background First

I was born and bred into the Roman Catholic faith, and was up there with the rest at one time with how Christians practice their faith, though currently I no longer subscribe to or follow the doctrines, symbolisms of the church and religion. I no longer attend church. But in saying that my faith and belief in this “supreme power” has never been stronger. And I hold the being Jesus in high regard and the lessons I took as explained below.

One can say I am spiritual not religious. I am what one would term an Energy Channel and Conduit. Strange and wonderful things can happen when I lay my hands on someone, or when I simply intend so. I did not choose this, it was gifted to me and I’m humbled to have become a vessel for this “supreme power”, this “cosmic energy”, to work with whoever comes to me.

Do read on …..

So … About The Cross

If we took only one thing out of his teachings, it would be this … the concept of “Unconditional Love” !

To me, the underlying message within the cross is “Unconditional Love”, and emphasizing on the word UNCONDITIONAL ! Unfortunately most people struggle with this concept, let alone being able to practice or live it, the best of Christians included.

Unconditional Love ! I believe this is what the “being” we know as Jesus (or Yeshua as he presents himself to me) wanted mankind to grasp. If we took only one thing out of his teachings, I feel it would be this … the concept of “Unconditional Love” !

Look, he know what he was in for, he knew exactly !! And he had the power and ability to prevent the torture, the crucifixion. Why …. he could had stopped all of this at anytime, all he had to do was to lay his hand on the Pharisees and they would see the “light”. But why did he not?

When Peter defended Jesus by cutting off the ear of a Roman solider, Jesus reattached the ear and told Peter, “Shall I not drink from the cup my Father has given me”.

He could have chosen not to subject himself to this really horrible death. He instead saw and practiced a larger picture .. Unconditional Love !

What Is Love

Love, in my humble view, holds the highest frequency vibration in the cosmos. But the concept of love is often used and practiced very loosely by mankind. Through our conditioning and belief systems, love has very often become conditional, subject to something.

“I love you … but”

“I will do this for you … if”

“I will love ..when”

Within the word UNCONDITIONAL, there is no place for “But”, If”, “And” or the likes.

True love flows from the heart, from this quiet, still, calm, peaceful place within void of unhelpful emotions and thoughts. It extends and radiates out in the absence of expectations, reward, self-ego, need for validation, acknowledgement, conditions, etc. … yep, you get it 🙂. True love is Unconditional and it flows out for the greater good for mankind.

On that note, there is also the aspect of Unconditional Love for one’s own-self ….  “Self Love”. But that’s a blog for another day 🙂 (stay tuned).

I’d encourage you to take time out to reflect and practice what unconditional love could mean for you. What happens when we choose (yes, its a choice) to encompasses the concept of unconditional in our interaction with others. Mothers, in particular, are quite good at this. Remember the phrase “A face only a mother could love” ?

Consider that when you practice this, you’ll find that potentially, you ;

    • Have less expectations of others
    • Respect and understand the journey / struggles of others better
    • Start seeing others in a different light, perhaps even the “God-spark” within them
    • Hence too, become less judgmental and perhaps more compassionate
    • Have less of a desire to lash out
    • Now find that you are less stressed about your expectations of life and people
    • Have less of those unhelpful emotions within, or perhaps are able to manage them better

Gosh, I could go on and on, but I hope you see that by allowing yourself to love unconditionally, you are actually helping yourself too. It could be termed a “selfish” act, but its a good thing ehh ? 🙂

Imagine how much better the world we live in could be, if we all took time just to practice a little “unconditional love”. When we choose to treat each other a slightly better degree of care, dignity, understanding and respect .. unconditionally.

Yeshua, The Cross And Unconditional Love

At the Last Supper, Yeshua washes the feet of his disciples and told his disciples “A new command I give you, love one another as I have loved you”.

I bet at that time, they did not have much of a freakin clue 🙂  what he truly meant.

Yeshua, could have saved himself from the cross and death, but his act was “selfless” and “unconditional” and aimed at demonstrating a practice for us to emulate in the manner we treat and regard each other.

“Love One Another As I Have Loved You” … and know you don’t have to be a Christian or even be religious to practice this.

“Stay the course, pick up the pieces, start again”

While on the cross he went on to say “Father forgive them for they know not what they do”. Still, the human aspect of him had its own “hissy fit” as he cried out “Father, why have you forsaken me”.

This is something we can all inadvertently feel within, “forsaken”, as we practice  unconditional love and in the process get disregarded, have shit thrown at our faces, etc. Yep, we have all been there right ?

But what do you do then ? Stay the course, pick up the pieces, start again, get “forsaken” again and start all over again.

It is a big, big ask of anyone to practice unconditional love all the time. Its definitely easier said than done, but there is bigger picture here, ultimately taking yourself into a place of deep peace, feeling light, feeling free, allowing your true self from within to emerge and radiate.

Today, I am a better version of myself, simply because of how I “choose” to practice this in my own life. I falter, man do I falter ! 🙂 But I try and stay the course.

This, my friends is the meaning I take out of Good Friday. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

“Love One Another As I Have Loved You”

The Journey With Black Thongs

A tale in demonstrating how “gold nuggets” exist within situations where things don’t go as planned or as intended and how this can include inspiration to write this very blog. We simply need to make a choice within to discover these gold nuggets.

By the way, for those of you not familiar with Australian terms of references, “thongs” are footwear, slippers or what some would call flip flops, well,  in contrast to that reference being used for underwear (G-Strings). 🙂

The Preamble

Of late I have been plagued with a range of hip and back issues which seemed to be caused by spinal misalignment and tight muscles. The long term solution was to incorporate more natural movement into my routines, and this would include long walks, hiking, etc, However, I have proven to be quite good at self sabotaging my grand plans with these activities, resulting in zero walks or hikes.

The Universe Acts

The “powers that be” set the stage for me to inadvertently do what I’ve been short-changing myself on

The car was scheduled for the workshop this morning. My grand plan was to chuck the bicycle into the car, drop the car off and cycle back home. It will be good to mention that, despite having purchased this bike two years ago, I’ve only even used it once … duhh !

So I pulled it out, dusted it out and discovered flat tyres (but of course). Would you believe, out of four air pumps (including an air compressor with a blown fuse) none of these bloody worked in my effort to inflate the tyres.

Hmmmm, its a message me thinks, not meant to be. Well, the workshop has in the past got someone to send me back. So off I go.

But, it would seem this time the workshop had no one immediately available to drop me off and I’d have to wait quite a while if it were to happen.

What to do me thinks …. a gentle voice in my head tells me, “Hey ! walk back”. Its a 3km distance to back home. That really is not that far to walk but gosh I can’t recall the last time I had walked 3km. I realise I am wearing a pair of black thongs not shoes. Bummer, shoes would be better for a 3 km walk home versus thongs.

Discoveries Of The Journey

Ok shit happens, but let’s see what comes out of this, my mind goes, its gonna be good.

My personal philosophy is that no matter what life throws us, what we are called to do instead, is to embrace the experience, and consider that, its within this space of that experience that we discover the essence of what we can now create instead

As I start the walk, and as the body starts to move with the gait, my attention is drawn to stiffness and slight pain in various parts. It may good to point out here that I’m a certified Personal Trainer, though I have not been doing myself much favours with the benefit of that skillset .. go figure LOL !

I direct my mindfulness to the movement and positioning of the hips, readjust my posture. Then checking how my torso and shoulders are moving in comparison and their relative positioning, posture. I started observing how the “hinge points” in the body behaved, from the hip to knees to ankles. How was I moving ? What did I need to shift ? How did I need to move instead ?

I pay attention to my breathing, where was I breathing from ? Was I allowing for the appropriate thoracic expansion ?

Eventually my body started moving more fluidly, the pain and stiffness subsided. I tell myself, damn ! This was what I needed to be doing more of … duhh !

Shit needed happen first 🙂

Within the journey, it was fun too observing the surroundings, gardens, ponds, ducks, vegetation. I even brought myself to venture in a park where I used to once take my doggie for walks. I rarely went there anymore since she died two years ago, there was no need, too many memories.

The Outcome

I had a CHOICE as to how to react to this situation. I did so in the manner I have trained myself to over the years … “What Can I Make Out Of This ?”

I enjoyed that walk, I am glad it happened. It presented the much needed opportunity for me to discover more how my body moved (needed to move) and acceptance into what I need to do more. It served to interrupt the pattern of self sabotage and potentially set the stage for alternative behaviors.

The black thongs held up, I don’t believe they had ever done that much mileage at one go.

I love this part …. I have not written a blog for quite a while now and in the 30 minutes it took me to reach home, the “grey matter” worked out how this blog would read and here it is.

So what’s the lesson here ?

My view of pain in the body is one way Life / the Universe tells us that we are not doing what we need to be doing. And when we continue not to adhere, other situations / obstacles can be thrown in our path as a nudge, a reminder. Resultingly things can get worse and as humans, we are extremely good at consequently reacting in unbeneficial ways, often framing the situations in the worst possible manner, which needless to say makes our reality of the situation even more undesirable.

It is our thoughts, the inner narrative that ultimately determines the reality of our experiences

We just need to become mindful of these signs and nudges, listen, pay attention. Challenge yourself, in what you consider undesirable situations. Ask yourself ;

    • If there exists some benefit from this, what would that be ?
    • If me reacting differently could benefit the situation, how would I do that ?
    • If there’s a bigger picture beyond what I’d usually see, what could that be ?
    • If there’s a hidden message here, what would that be ?

Lastly consider again, regardless of the situation, what we are simply being led into is the “experience”. It does not matter what the experience is about. When your focus and self-challenge is on what you can take out from that experience, what you can create out of it, then the magic of growth happens.

Death !! One Person’s View

The Gist Of This Blog

How do you view death ? How relevant is the “post death” process for the deceased ? Would it perhaps be more for the living instead ?

In that regard, below is an extract of an email I sent to members of my family back in November 2019 titled “In The Event Of My Death” which I’d like to share.

A caution, this may ruffle the value and belief systems of some readers, its raw and direct.

The Usual Preamble

A chat this morning with a friend who was dealing with the passing of a loved one prompted me to write this. Well, to note too, the passing of my mum just four days ago probably added on to this prompt.

Those who know me well enough, will know that I am spiritual not religious (well, no longer) and too, pragmatic plus down to earth in me dealing with life’s challenges.

I’ve evolved from being a person who was hyper sensitive to what others thought of me, rather insecure, one who struggled to consider the views of others, patterned with rigid thinking from my formative years and too from that of being an Accountant for 30 plus years ……. well, to now, a Transformational Therapist who works with people (too, with similar journeys) helping them become better and newer versions of themselves, Mentally, Emotionally and Spiritually.

My views on life now are not necessarily what they used to be from years yonder and I have no doubt, my views as such will evolve further to other levels in the years to come.

The email extract referred to, naturally represents my take on the subject of death and related processes. My intention here is NOT to play down the values and beliefs of others, but simply to bring to a conscious awareness, alternative perspectives and insights as to why we may act the way we do, well that is if its not already evident enough.

At time of writing this blog, its April 2020.

But Before That

A relative once told me, if I come into some money, I will use it to do up a grand headstone on my dad’s grave. He went on to say that he made a promise to his dad (after his passing) that this is what he would do and that he felt his late dad would appreciate it. Too, that its a promise he should uphold.

Well, my mind went, hmmmmmm !!

I view the deceased as no longer holding the level of consciousness that we the living possess, which encompasses amongst others, opinions, expectations and emotions, especially the unhelpful ones.

Instead, I view the deceased as having connected back to a level of consciousness that is pure energy, cosmic in nature, where there is an absence of emotions, judgement, expectations etc. and hence do not “think” and “behave” as the living do.

I dare say they represent “pure love”. Consider ;

Would it matter to the deceased if there was a grand headstone or not?

Would they frown upon the living if that “promise” was not upheld ?

Would they now hold the living accountable ?

Perhaps, consider that this relative needed to go through a process that was vital to him getting closure and coming into harmony with his dad’s passing, related issues as well as coming into harmony with his own limiting patterns, emotions and triggers.

Now, I’m not suggesting otherwise with the headstone, by all means do it if need be. However I feel its important to bring into perspective (and a conscious awareness) why we do what we do and the reasons for it.

OK, Here Is The Email Extract

Recent deaths amongst families of friends have triggered these thoughts in me, which I have been wanting to say for a long time now, hence I might as well. 

In the event of my death …. Well, not that I see myself dying soon, in fact I plan to live for a long long time more.

… But, in the event of my death ;

  • Cremate me
  • Ashes .. well, it really does not matter to me, I am dead, let the crematorium dispose of it
  • Unless any of you want to do something else with it. But don’t do it for me, only if it helps you in dealing with the process / remembrance
  • Flowers, for yourselves and please tell people, PLEASE DON’T WASTE MONEY on that. I suggest that they can choose to contribute the $$ towards funeral expenses
  • I’m dead, I don’t give a shit about if there are flowers or not. It’s the florists that will benefit from it
  • Coffin – don’t waste money getting fancy stuff. Be practical, its going to be burnt anyway
  • Church funeral ? … don’t bother ! While my faith in God (incl Jesus, Mother Mary, etc.) is the strongest its ever been and will continue to reach new levels by the time I’m gone ….. I no longer subscribe to the doctrines of the church. It’s a man-made framework /attempt to understand and interpret the Divine and its incomplete and filled with what I see as un-useful traditions, rituals and symbolism and too some untruths. Well, in saying that, there is much truth and essence too therein … but its no longer the “book” I go by.
  • Do what’s convenient otherwise for you, this whole post-death process as I see it, is really to cater for the grieving process of the living, and not to mention social conventions
  • Really … you don’t have to pray for my soul or have any special blessings or ceremony. There is no substance or necessity in that as I see it. The moment I leave this physical body, the Soul / Spirit becomes part of the collective cosmic force and too, on a pre-determined direction
  • No amount of praying / ceremony / rituals nor the absence of it is going to make a difference. Which is one reason why I don’t resonate with the phrase “Rest In Peace”. The soul moves on to a new purpose, there is no need to rest, it is already in peace.
  • If you want / need to do something, do it for yourself as part of your process in remembering me
  • If any of you feel sorry for me in my passing, please don’t !!. While I understand the living will have go thru their own respective grieving process, its natural. I’d rather be remembered for the life I lived, not the death I died, if that makes sense. But then again, I’m dead !. I guess it does not matter to me
  • The Spirit moves on and no longer holds onto the conscious patterns common to the living. It’s a whole new ball game. So really, you don’t have to worry / not worry, i.e. how I may or may not think / react post death. The Spirit does not think and behave as the living do. The Spirit in fact vibrates at the same frequency as that of God (i.e. LOVE). Hence there exists no form of judgment or opinions from the deceased. It’s the living that tend to bring that into play, in an effort to process the passing and to get some degree of closure.

2020 – Creating And Following Your Heart

There are two parts to this article, firstly an intuitive insight into what 2020 brings via the channelled messages I receive and an Energy Transmission (at bottom) to assist on your journey in 2020.

What’s Ahead

2020 .. a new year, a new decade and definitely it presents energies and windows of influence  for new beginnings, a new way of living, a new way of seeing things.

More and more people will now wake up to a greater level of awareness and consciousness, a greater quest for meaning, purpose and spirituality. They will find themselves exploring paths and horizons, they had never considered before or perhaps only dreamt about. Some will find themselves thrown into new and unfamiliar territory through no particular action or intent on their part.

For those you who have already done the hard work of inner reflection and purging of redundant conditioning, the journey ahead will be relatively easier. But not necessarily so always.

The choice is up to us really, how we choose to negotiate this and walk our path. We can choose to ride this wave or not to and there will be ramifications where we choose not to.

Those who choose not to, and too for those have not done the inner work, they may find themselves dragged into greater states of uneasiness, feeling squeezed, being uncomfortable where they are.

Be warned, come easily or be dragged kicking and screaming.

The Path Leading Up

The preceding years have been about preparing us for what’s to come in 2020 and beyond.

Like in prior years, but more so for 2019, it was about preparation, releasing  old patterns and conditioning and allowing these to be brought up to be addressed. Many would have experienced internal chaos, huge and frequent cycles/ rollercoasters of ups and downs and despite their best efforts they found themselves being stuck in this loop.

The trick was to sit in observance of these, to allow these patterns and emotions to present itself and us not being in denial, in judgement or in avoidance of it, but simply allowing it to flow.

Often through the very act of this, via some unseen force, a wave a relief flows through and what was, dissipates and suddenly becomes light and bearable, … well, untill the next dip, and we do it all over again.

The Journey Into

From all that I intuitively sense, messages received from guidance and from what similar others are saying, I’d say 2020 is about CREATING !! “Following Your Heart” and “Living Your Passion”.

These are the other key elements of what I see the energies of 2020 presenting ;

    • Moving away from who you are, who you once were
    • Rethinking your perspective on life as to what you deemed right, just ok or wrong
    • Breaking away from old moulds and now stepping into your power and authenticity, discovering and embracing the inner you
    • Answering that call to purpose, embracing and exploring your passion
    • Propelling your existing plans to new heights
    • Living your life towards the way your soul calls you to

Know that the path ahead may not necessarily be a bed of roses, but for those who’ve ridden the wave in 2019, 2020 will not be as tough but more rewarding in comparison.

Uprooting may also be a key theme, or rather a consequence of the 2020 wave, naturally depending on where you are in your stage of transformation. This may mean, a shaking up in all areas of life, home, career, relationships, finances, etc. Be ready to embrace these (shake ups) in each step as these are key elements and determinants in the process of growth for 2020. Getting stuck into resistance with these factors will not help with you riding the wave and rather potentially drag you down further.

Some will find that vibrationaly, they are no longer a match or resonate with, relationships, career paths, situations. Pay heed, as these are in fact signals or catalysts for you to evolve out.

Embrace any chaos that ensues, for like the mystical Phoenix, it is through the fire that you will rise up and be magnificent. And I cannot emphasize this enough, i.e. to sit in harmony with the chaos the may present itself.

What You Can Do

Some tips for you managing the 2020 ride ;

    • Seek to keep your energy vibrations high at all times
    • Go within, discover how to listen to that inner voice, your intuition. Trust in it, for it will be your guiding light
    • Bring awareness into what you are projecting, mentally and emotionally, which in turn impacts your energetical state.
    • Become more aware of unwanted and unhelpful subconscious patterns (fear, guilt, shame, etc) and limiting belief systems
    • Discover your values. What’s important to you, why is it so. Is it your values that you are living or could it have been values of others imprinted onto you
    • Spend time dreaming, discover what your passion is, what is it that makes you wake up in the morning and become alive
    • What are the little steps you could take right now to make this dream a reality. What’s standing in the way, what can you do about it ?
    • Move away from people or situations that don’t serve your purpose or which drag you down
    • Associate yourself with those who inspire you, with those who can help you on your path
    • Adopt a practice of Mindfulness, Meditation
    • Energetically ground yourself (Google it, or email me for more info)
    • Make expressing gratitude a way of life
    • Explore professional therapies if need to, e.g.
      • Cognitive Therapy addressing the deep subconscious
      • Energy Work or Energy Healing sessions
      • Sound Healing
      • Astrology – explore your Ascending and Moon signs what it means and brings for you. Not necessarily your Birth / Sun sign
    • Listen and follow the work these people (only a small section on my list of recommendations)
      • Joe Dispenza
      • Bruce Lipton
      • John Demartini (esp his take on what your higher values are)
      • Don Miguel Ruiz – read his book “The Four Agreements”

There are many many tools and methods one can use, these above are just a few.

I hope the above blurb helps and I wish you a 2020 that brings you peace and in alignment with who you are truly meant to be.

About Me

My name is Tony Ratnam, based in Perth, Australia and I am an Energy Channeller and a Transformational Therapist, working with people energetically, spiritually and cognitively within their deep subconscious towards them becoming new and improved versions of themselves.

Contact me on info@inneralignment.com.au  if you feel I may be of assistance in helping you discover the true you.

Every two weeks I conduct a Free Remote Energy Transmission, live on Facebook and I invite you to connect in. You’ll find more information and event details at the link below.

Energy Transmission

This below is an Energy Transmission, where I act as a channel and conduit cosmic energies which will assist with your journey in 2020.

Serendipity Stories – IndiaJiva

It pays to listen to and heed that nudging, the intuition, that little voice a lot of us get.

In relation to that, here’s my story of how I met Ron and Vicki of IndiaJiva.  Was this Serendipity ?, Synchronicity ? , Destined ?,  well, you decide ! 😃

The Call

I had planned to attend the Conscious Living Expo in Perth in October 2018. Browsing their website prior to that, what caught my attention was an image of an Indian-looking man with a sitar and the flashing of words my mind focused on, “music”, “India” and “live stage event”. Hmmm !, I thought to myself, interesting, need to look them up.

Upon arriving at the expo, I cast my eyes onto the huge event posters on the wall, scanning for something that would feature this “man with the sitar”. But I cld not find it. Apparently it was there, but for some reason, my mind simply did not latch on.

Hence I proceeded to check out each stall / exhibit one by one in search. I did pass by one stall, where I noticed a bald headed Indian man. (Well it was Ron), but my mind went nahhh, that’s not him. I proceeded to made two rounds throughout the expo without discovering them.

The Pull

Quite dejected, I decided to head home. However as I reached the exit, I told my wife who had accompanied me, no, I have to go back and do one more sweep. Something was pulling me back, it just did not feel right to leave.

I then out found myself passing that very same stall with the bald headed Indian man and this time decided to enquire. Lo and behold it was them, Indiajiva !!!. I found them !!

Guess what ? At that very moment they were just about to head to the main stage for their live event. Gosh, talk about timing ! How coincidental that I was there just in time. Consider that I could have already been on my way back home.

I was totally captivated by their live performance, their music and especially Vicki’s voice was absolutely magical, heavenly and possessed amazing energy interlaced within it.

Well, the next thing I know, I’m back at their stall, having conversations and buying their CDs. Their music was what I needed.

Trust And Allow

You see, I am an Energy Channeller / Healer and am always on the lookout for background music to play during my Group and Individual sessions. My group sessions now always feature their music. It’s like their music is the right fit for the work I do.

My take on all this …. I was meant to find them, I was meant to have and play their music. I was led to them and even despite me not initially seeing the obvious right in front of my eyes (for whatever reason), and despite the odds, something would not let me leave until I discovered them. I am glad I did.

With regards to that nudging, the intuition, that little voice, we all have this ability and gift within us and many of you would have experienced situations similar to that above, all we need to do is to TRUST and ALLOW for this to unfold and what’s meant to be will materialize.

Music tracks from IndiaJiva can be found on their Soundcloud site, Click Here !

Thanks for reading and blessings to you 🙏.

August 2019

Finding Harmony Within Aversions In Life

My writing about my life experiences is in a way an avenue for my own self healing / clearing and too, in presenting to readers who may connect with what I have to say in regards to their own respective life journeys.

I’ll start here by relating on aspects of stuff in my life that I had impactful aversions to, and further to the insights as to why this was so and where I am now finding harmony with this, 40 years down the road.

Its a path of reconciliation of sorts, coming face to face with unwanted patterns and conditioning of old, recognizing them, understanding why they were there, with regards the role they played, acknowledging this and coming to terms that I no longer have to hold on to these. And in doing this, I set the stage to free up my mind and energies to move forward lighter and also to look back and discover the beauty and harmony that actually existed within that I was once averse to.

If you relate to what I’ve just mentioned, consider where in your life, do you see this play out in your own and what can you do henceforth to set your own stage for transformation.

What I’ve written here is something that I’ve always kept to myself and not even the people closest in my life are probably fully aware of this, Well its out now. 🙂

My Origins

I currently live in Perth, Australia, but I originated from Malaysia. I am Indian by race and I am what I’d term as a 3rd generation “Malaysian Indian”, on the basis of my great grandmother emigrating from South India to Malaysia. While Tamil was my mother tongue, I grew up with English as my main language. I myself though have never been to India, well one day I will. 🙂

Culturally and behaviorally, I see (well my view at least) a difference or distinction between the Indians born and bred in Malaysia in contrast to those in motherland India. For that reason too I’ve never quite identified myself with the ethnic cultures and dispositions of those from motherland India. That world as I then viewed it was a case of “Us” and “Them”. Even for that matter, as you’ll discover below, I also never quite fully identified myself with the ethnic cultures and dispositions of Malaysian Indians as well.

The Aversions

Up towards my teens and into my adult life, I found myself being quite averse to aspects of Indian culture and really “anything Indian”. I won’t say it was so in total, but it was significant enough.

Strange one would say, given that is my heritage.

I had this intense dislike for Bollywood movies, especially Tamil movies. With Hindustani movies however, somehow that seemed more tolerable, but still definitely not my cup of tea. And given Bollywood movies and songs go hand in hand, the same aversion existed within me for Tamil and Hindustani songs, here too with me being a little more tolerable towards some Hindustani songs.

These movies (and culture) for me were a representation of “too much drama”. Well those who watch Bollywood movies will know what I mean (well maybe some of you). To me the “drama” in these movies represented and portrayed a host of negativity, sorrow, pent up anger, narrow minded mentality and focus, glass half empty attitude, etc. Hang on one would say, there is beauty, harmony and joy in the songs and the dancing, well sadly I never saw that or related to it.

For me, all of this was in fact anchoring to the “drama” I observed in real life around me, family, friends and especially in general within the Malaysian Indian community. The intense dislike for Tamil movies came from this and my “over exposure” to it growing up as a kid.

I saw the Indian community in Malaysia as taking on the aspect of  “Life Imitating Art”. A lot of them seemed to emulate the unhelpful “drama” of these movies into their daily life and this was in turn projected onto people they interacted with. I truly believed that absent the influence (“drama”) of Bollywood movies, the Malaysian Indian community in general would possess a greater degree of consciousness.

I never quite resonated with the mindset, character, temperament (looking for the right phrase ..LOL ) of the typical Malaysian Indian and in particular that of the typical Indian male. I just never fully jived with it and with the associated bravado.

I’d like to emphasize here that I do not intend any disrespect or disregard to any persons or aspects of communities mentioned. What is being related here is my story, as a result of my own experiences and conditioning … read on.

So here I am painting multi aspects of the Indian community with the same broad brush and strokes. Nice one Tony !! 🙂

It can be said that my perception at that time was rather biased, somewhat judgmental, negative. All of this was however based on my clouded internal perception of “anything Indian”. Looking back it was due to my own insecurities and selective filtering, generalization of reality out there, resulting in my own selective reality based on my experiences of my life then.

As A Result

The consequence of my mindset, my self denial stifled my energy. I indirectly placed self impositions on what I can and can’t enjoy in life, where and how I should have  fun. Because I placed rules on what I can and cannot like, I inadvertently placed blocks on the joy of life flowing through me.

You know, one would never ever catch me dead wearing traditional Indian menswear. There was no way in hell you’d get me into one of those. Well, hang on, I may have once, dunno, its a faded / vague distant memory. Again, this is the result of the internal representation I had created in my head about “anything Indian”.

These days I am more comfortable in admitting and saying, without fear or favour that I never really liked my childhood, I did not enjoy it. I also don’t recall much of it, and where I do, its about things that I disliked about myself and what it represent in regards to that I wish I was not, or could have been instead.

In essence its not so much about what the external world projected onto that little boy, but more the meanings and the representations that little boy choose to take on as his belief systems and his reality.

But I have since, especially in recent years come (learnt) to sit in harmony with that little boy within.

There was a time when I left the family home, living and working in other towns (well, cities really). For me it was a time away from all these. Even still I’d literally & physically cringe if I were to walk into a situation where there was a Tamil movie playing and / or similar real life situations.

But it was not all 100% aversion. There were some old Tamil songs that I liked, the same with Hindustani songs and a couple of Hindustani movies (who recalls “Bobby” with Dimple Kapadia and Rishi Kapoor 🙂). But in the style of self-denial, aspects of me would never admit or acknowledge this, while secretly having a fondness. Ahahaha !! A representation of the many opposing conflicts within my life then.

The first three girls that I courted were strangely and in contrast, .. guess what ?  Ahahaha …. Indian !!! would you believe ?? 🙂 🙂 But then I found myself being pulled towards girls who were non-Indian. The pattern was playing out and my attractions diverted to females who were non-Indian. That was the case for subsequent girlfriends (not that I had many or I was playboy like .. Gosh !! the truth being far far from it 🙂 🙂) and my eventual marriage to a non-Indian. That in itself tells a story huh ?

Digressing a little, I held within me huge insecurities about me and the opposite sex. This was in relation my insecure take on their likely perception of me, my interaction with them and / or my concept of the opposite sex ever finding me attractive enough. Aspects of these core insecurities exists still today .. well that’s a story for a another blog and how I overcame it and how I continue to mop up the residual.

Now

Fast forward to present time and my journey of awakening and growing in consciousness and spirituality. Its been a long “tooth and nail” path of transformation to where I am today. Do have a read of my blog titled “Finding My Inner Radiance“ for more “juicy insights”.

I now consciously experience wave after wave of shifts both in the cognitive and spiritual sense.  But just when I feel I’ve reached a stable platform, something else, some gunk, is unearthed within for me to come face to face with. And when I learn to sit in harmony with these, I am then transformed and raised to another platform of being.

These days, I look forward to the “gunk” in my life surfacing, for its within these lie the answers and keys to my path henceforth. It frees my energies for me to engage more effectively in fulfilling my Life Purpose, the reason I came to this planet.

Today and in recent years I find myself becoming more in harmony with these aversions of past and my views of “anything Indian”, and this is the result of my progression in clearing away layers and layers of insecurities, unwanted patterns, conditioning and belief systems. I find myself now attempting to reconnect to my roots, my heritage in a new light and with a fresh set of eyes and perspective. Where this will take me, I do not know, but its a good thing.

These days, while I still don’t have any inclination to watch Bollywood movies, I find myself looking back in fondness at some of the songs of old and discovering the beauty and light in these and in others too . With regards my aversions of “anything Indian”, I nowadays find myself more accepting and in flow with it. I am now able to catch myself in the act  of any past patterns and have a conversation with myself as to why it is so, and what I can do to change it.

Of late I found myself waking up in the morning with some of these songs stuck in my head or finding myself spontaneously bursting into song with these, humming as I go about my day (Damn !! feels like me in a Bollywood movie ehh, bursting into song  ? .. Ahahaha !!). 🙂 🙂

Today was one of those days and I even did my gym workout listening to tracks of Hindustani songs .. LOL ! .. Gosh !! OMG !! What’s happening to me ! … hee hee !! 🙂 Well, it inspired me to write this blog out.

I leave you with this Hindustani clip “SAY SHAVA SHAVA” below. Compared to other songs this was kind of in the “acceptable” list for the me of the past. But as a result of my past internal perceptions it would have been uncomfortable for me to sit and watch the video in full .. e.g. the whole group dancing, party concept etc, amongst other things.

I guess some of you must be by now scratching your head and going .. but why ? Hmmm ! The power and impact of subconscious patterning. 🙂

I now am able to enjoy listening to this and more significantly so, am able to watch the “antics” 🙂 with greater sense of internal authenticity, acceptance and in harmony …. a stark contrast to even the me of even a couple of years ago, leave aside the me of old (not sure yet how I’ll fare with Tamil clips … watch this space). 🙂

I’ve come one step more towards sitting in harmony with things that I once dissociated with. Consider, that the things we fear, dislike or have aversions with are the very things that we’d need to face, find harmony with for our ongoing spiritual and cognitive growth.

Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Blessings to you !

Song and Video Credits And Acknowledgements
P/S : If the video above buffers too much, do click on the You Tube link below

You Tube Clip – SonyMusicIndiaVEVO
Song Name – Say Shava Shava
Movie – Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham
Singer – Sudesh Bhosle, Alka Yagnik, Sunidhi Chauhan, Amitabh Bachchan, Aadesh Shrivastava & Udit Narayan
Lyrics – Sameer Anjaan Music – Aadesh Shrivastava
Director – Karan Johar
Studio – Dharma Productions
Producer – Yash Johar
Music Label – Sony Music Entertainment India Pvt. Ltd.

 

The Transition Journey

A reflection on the years past and towards the years to be.

Part of what I like to do is looking for alternate (positive) meanings within things and using metaphors.

This time its the song “The Last Goodbye” from the movie “The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies”. This song was composed by Billy Boyd, and who also sings it and beautifully too. Now, Lord of the Rings fans will know Billy Boyd to be the one playing the character of “Pippin”.

Scroll down below to listen to this song and view the full lyrics.

I connect with the lyrics of this song very much .. as what I take from it is a journey of transition.

To me, my journey of change over the years from a hard set personality with blinkers on, the “Accountant”, moving onto a continuously new and evolving horizon. I find myself now walking and discovering more and more the spiritual path with realizations of new levels of consciousness, all this towards the role I am to play in helping others in their very own journeys.

This song for me sheds light on the aspect of “the ME who can be” versus the aspects of “the ME that no longer serves my higher purpose”.

For something new to grow and flourish, at times somethings must die, somethings must end !

Connecting With The Song

And now, as 2017 ends, we reflect back on the trials, the tribulations, the journeys and paths traveled in 2017 (and prior), quoting the lyrics of this song, I now say to the ME of old …

To these memories I will hold
With your blessing I will go
To turn at last to paths that lead home

Many places I have been
Many sorrows I have seen
But I don’t regret
Nor will I forget
All who took that road with me

And as 2018 looms and as the trials of 2017 end …

Night is now falling
So ends this day

But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

And as I flow into 2018, I welcome, brace myself and look forward to the new trials, the new adventures, for …

The road is now calling
And I must away
Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light has shone
By silver streams that run down to the sea

The Pursuit Of Happiness

For many, we wish so much to be in control of our destiny, we tend to take comfort in the predictive, in being predictive. We cling on to the hope, the ideal of happiness .. to the extent that we can end up becoming quite unhappy in the pursuit of happiness. Ironic huh ?

Consider that the happiness, the knowing that we seek can sometimes instead arise within our ability to let go of the need for it.

Consider that this can entail one walking within the dark, not knowing, unaware, feeling lost. But when one is able to do so and embrace this concept with trust and faith re the path ahead, the knowing and happiness have a tendency of presenting itself, disguised though at times, but know that it exists therein.

Consider the concept of …. that when we no longer view happiness as the end state / the destination … and instead embrace the ideal that we can discover it within the journey walked, within the darkness, within the trials and the tribulations

Consider that the “Happiness” is in fact the “Journey”

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell ….

Consider too, for its within the darkest depths of the fears we hold onto, that we can in turn discover the light, the beauty and the strength that represents the most precious aspects of us and potentially the launch pad for our further greatness.

With the onset of the New Year, symbolically ….

I turn at last to paths that lead HOME 

For it is here in walking this journey, walking within the not knowing, that …

I can fully serve the purpose I was put here for …

I now embrace, live and sit in harmony with my fears and that which is presented here forth  …

The journey HOME .. where I further discover my own truth. Accepting who I am and who I’m not and being able to speak and walk my truth within my true authenticity …

Live my authenticity in the absence of the collective fears of past patterning and conditioning that have plagued most of us …

 

Hence to the “ME of old” ….. I bid you a fond farewell. For the road is now calling and I must away.

So !! What is your story ?

What road beckons you forth, what goodbyes do you have to say, what loads must you drop to travel through lands where never light has shone ? I bid you blessings on your journey.

Video and Song credits;
Korital Lyrics : For the You Tube clip with the lyrics
Copyright by WaterTower Music

“The Last Goodbye” (Billy Boyd)

I saw the light fade from the sky
On the wind I heard a sigh
As the snowflakes cover
My fallen brothers
I will say this last goodbye

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light has shone
By silver streams that run down to the sea

Under cloud, beneath the stars
Over snow and winter’s morn
I turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

Many places I have been
Many sorrows I have seen
But I don’t regret
Nor will I forget
All who took that road with me

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill, and under tree
Through lands where never light has shone
By silver streams that run down to the sea

To these memories I will hold
With your blessing I will go
To turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

I bid you all a very fond farewell